Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

now your children want to talk to you. Go do your dharma. I want you to
come back at 5:23 PM".
Later meditation: Not for sharing.
Sunday, February 8, 1998
During puja at 5:36 AM she again heard the words "matt ye, matti ye."
These are the same words she had heard yesterday in the meditation. She
did not figure out what it meant.
She followed the puja with the meditation: Baba asked "What do you
want to know?" She asked Baba about the meaning of the dream she had
last night. Baba explained "Dreams are of three types - sub conscious
related, super conscious related and vasanas (tendencies, samskaras)
related. Both the dreams were vasanas related. Yesterday in the morning
you fed eggs to the family but you did not eat. When you gave up eating
meat you truly renounced (gave up the desire). Though you are not
eating fish and eggs, but you still have the desire, you have not been able
to give up the desire completely." She asked "should I try harder and not
eat fish and eggs at least on Mondays, since Monday is supposed to be
Lord Shiva's day." Baba said "For a sanyasin everyday is Lord Shiva's
day. As long as you have the desire, whether you eat or not is not so
important. It is like Ahimsa, you may not kill but as long as you have
desire to kill you have not conquered the senses. Don't worry and don't
feel guilty." Further he commented on the other part of the dream saying
"There was no significance to that dream. It was all inner struggle
related."
She asked Baba "should I give up drinking alcohol." Baba said "It is
not you who needs to do anything. I will do it for you. Right now you
continue for the sake of Gyani. That is one of the links you have with
Gyani, he does not need to renounce yet. Eventually he will."
Baba told her "Last year the knot of the chakra in your forehead
loosened. That is what has allowed the flow of my thoughts to you. Now
the knot of the chakra in your throat has also loosened. By Shivaratri the
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