Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

man."
She asked Baba "what would my life be like after Shivaratri, would I
be meditating four times a day for rest of my life?" Baba laughed and
then said "right now there is a need for you and I to talk a lot, via
meditations my flow of thoughts reach you. Later you will see me one
with you all the time, you can close your eyes and talk to me whenever
you want."
"Shivangini, you will lose your spiritual growth and any Siddhis if you
are unable to practice the virtues we talked about". At this point she
started crying, and said "Baba please, can't you just use me as your
instrument and make me do the right things and make me say the right
things? I don't see how I can be so good all the time; it is a big burden
Baba; I am not sure if I can handle it by myself. Please do it for me
because I slip more often than you want me to. Please accept the burden
of all my karma, please, please." Baba said "you are surrendering from
the bottom of your heart. Receive my blessings, I will never forsake
you."
4 PM meditation: At this time there was no dialogue but she had deep
meditation.
10 PM meditation: very brief (10 minute), peaceful meditation but no
dialogue.
Monday, February 2, 1998
She woke up late (6:39 AM) and did not have the time to meditate
before going to work.
Noon meditation: First she was led to practice "Chakra" and "Tree"
techniques of meditation. Then she asked Baba what was the link of
sunny day to her clarity in meditation. Baba replied "there is no link, this
is a projection of your mind and feelings ... yad bhavam, tad bhavati"
This is a Sanskrit expression which means that "what you think and feel
will be your experience."
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