Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile
Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile
Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile
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11:26 AM meditation: This morning <strong>Dolly</strong> got really mad at Raeshum<br />
for her disrespectful behavior towards her and she realized that in this<br />
type of difficult situations she was not being able to practice anger<br />
control, forbearance, patience etc. She felt frustrated with herself. She<br />
thought there was no use meditating or reading the scriptures; she was<br />
not able to practice what she was being taught specially in difficult<br />
situations when it should truly be practiced. She was afraid that at this<br />
rate she could not do whatever she was being asked to do by Shivaratri<br />
day. At that moment her faith was shaky again and she thought perhaps<br />
she was so bad that God wanted her to realize her shortcomings in this<br />
manner.<br />
Nevertheless, something prompted her to continue to meditate. And at<br />
11:26 she was meditating again. This time there was more brightness in<br />
her visions (cloudy day vs. sunshine seemed to have effect on the<br />
brightness of her vision of blue light and the clarity of messages; today<br />
was sunny day). She expressed her above stated self frustration to Baba.<br />
He said "it is OK, don't be so hard on yourself. Do you remember your<br />
dream where Shirdi Baba asked you for seventeen dollars? Those were<br />
not dollars those were seventeen virtues. You be my instrument that is<br />
my Will, but you will have to firmly develop seventeen virtues, without<br />
those virtues you will not be able to handle the complexities that<br />
accompany piercing the past present and the future." She asked<br />
specifically which seventeen virtues she should have. Baba said "1)<br />
truth, 2) selfless love, 3) faith in scriptures and God, 4) no jealousy or<br />
envy, 5) no hatred, 6) Peace/Non-violence, 7) Courage/no fear, 8)<br />
forbearance, 9) patience, 10) control of anger, 11) compassion, 12)<br />
forgiveness, 13) no ego, 14) control of senses, 15) practice<br />
dharma/righteousness 16) contentment, and 17) equanimity."<br />
She thinks she remembered majority of them correctly, but due to the<br />
large number she was not sure of the exact sequence in which they were<br />
told and also the accuracy with 100% confidence.<br />
Sunday, February 1, 1998<br />
5:30 AM meditation: She practiced "Chakra" and "Tree" meditation<br />
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