Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

Thursday, January 29, 1998
Due to disturbed sleep she woke up three times in the night but
overslept till 6:25 AM and as a result missed her morning meditation.
She came home for lunch at noon and did the meditation. During
meditation Baba said "don't feel bad about not doing meditation this
morning. You have been getting tired; you need to be fresh like a flower
for the Mahashivratri. I can't let you get stressed before that time. You
need to gain a lot of knowledge about the scriptures in this short time.
That's why for last two days you have not received my thoughts. Rise
Shivangini and don't stop till you reach the goal. What is being said to
you is not just for you, it should serve as an example for others and you
need to write every word of it." She asked "What do you mean, I will
have to write the book or something?" Baba said "Yes, this book would
be for those who want to fathom the vast totality of Brahman with their
limited mind." She said "Baba, I have heck of a time writing a simple
letter, how would I ever compose such an important book." Baba said "It
will be written, you may not be the author of it. For the book you may
choose an appropriate title later but think about 'Sai Baba's Shivangini'."
Further Baba continued with some advice on how she needs to think and
behave with her family and others after Mahashivratri. Here equal
mindedness and being careful with the speech was strongly emphasized
(rest of the details were not for sharing). After that Baba had asked her to
meditate again today at 3:30 PM. She expressed her concern about 3:30
not being a convenient time for meditation and she may not be able to do
it. Baba repeated the time and asked her to relax and leave the rest to
him. At that time it was 1:00 PM. She took care of several work related
things. At 3:25, don't know how it became work wise possible, but she
was able to meditate for half an hour in her office. At that time Baba
conveyed the following: "The dream you had last night was to take care
of your last trace of attachment you have to detach yourself from your
best friend. You two love each other but separation has to occur. You are
not attached to the other two in your dream but they both love you." I
said "Baba, there are several other people who I am attached to besides
those three." Baba said "other attachments are dealt with and are
dissolved. You think you are attached to your brother and mother but
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