Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

ight and clear illumination of the image of the deities at the time of
puja, she felt shaky about the whole thing. Today was one of those days
when she did not see the illumination of the image of the deities upon
closing the eyes, and, last two days there had not been much, regardless
of when she meditated. Thinking that maybe she did something wrong or
may be it has come to an end, so at the time of puja referring to the lack
of illumination of the pictures in the mandir she said "its ending where it
began".
After that she still sat down to meditate. Meditation began with a
question from Baba. "Shivangini, how are you doing?" She felt happy
and replied "with your blessings doing fine, Baba." Then He said "Now
you are ready". Further He continued with commenting on the statement
she had made during puja "Who says it is an end, it is a beginning. It
starts now." "All that is behind, you have bright future." She asked "am I
going to get a promotion?" Baba said "I cannot call promotions and other
worldly things bright." It was said in a tone which she described to me
but it is hard to put it in words. "You will learn what that bright is. Go be
my messenger. From now on, call upon me when you need something."
She said "I thought you did not want me to ask for anything! It is true
that you are doing everything without my asking, so probably I shouldn't
ask." Then Baba reminded her how she felt yesterday when our daughter
independently prepared her breakfast and Dolly would have preferred if
Raeshum asked mom to make it for her. Baba said "similarly it makes
me happy to do things for my devotees. In the future you will understand
what to ask for."
She did not remember the exact flow of thoughts or exact sequence of
the messages but one of the things was "Do you want anything?" First
she thought of asking if she would find her precious earring that she had
lost few days back. But suddenly she felt that it was a meaningless thing
to ask for, instead her thoughts got filled with some of the problems of
this world and she said "Baba, I want that no child ever get abused in this
world; no woman ever get raped; I wish every body's heart stays filled
with love for others no one ever hurts any one". Baba said "all this is
what I want too, but what do you want for yourself?" Up until this point
she had a limited understanding of the concept of
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