Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

and not for you. You certainly cannot afford to waste time. Continue
meditation four times a day and stop reading all scriptures; at this stage
they will only confuse you. You will have all the time to read them after
Maha Shivaratri." This is all that was said but in some intuitive way she
knew which books were still OK to read.
Wednesday, January 14, 1998
In meditation today, at one point Baba asked her "Look down, what
do you see?" She was not seeing anything so she replied saying she did
not see anything. However, she had a strange feeling of having traveled
far in her mind, but there were absolutely no objects to see. At that point
she had the same strange feeling that she had just returned from far, and
Baba said "It was your fear that you could not see. You still do not have
full faith and surrender; otherwise I was holding you and you still could
not see".
Thursday, January 15,1998
Last night she had a dream (this dream is not described intentionally in
the dream section) where she saw her cousin who passed away few years
back. This morning in her meditation she asked Baba that she had read in
one of the books (given to her early on by her friend M) that seeing an
ancestor in the dream is supposed to be a warning for person's position
and well being in the worldly and materialistic sense. Because she had an
important presentation at work that morning, she wanted to know if this
dream had any negative implications. At that Baba laughed and said
"No, Don't worry. You will shine."
Friday, January 16, 1998
In the afternoon she was busy proofreading a work related document,
when suddenly one of her earring fell off from her ear and straight onto
the document that she was reading. There is no big deal about an earring
falling but she said it felt strange. She picked up the earring and put it
back in the ear. After work she ran some errands. After reaching home
she changed clothes and then started taking off the jewelry before getting
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