Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

space as Baba was asking her to. At her comment the inner voice said "It
is Prakriti, Shivangini. It is Prakriti."
And she understood that Brahman should be the object of meditation
and not the Prakriti.
Sunday, January 11, 1998
Today in the puja she did not see the frame around each deity as she
did yesterday. She meditated twice today and had absolutely no
communication from Baba. Not only that, she also did not see the blue
light.
So far, she had told a little bit only (in bits and pieces) to two of her
friends about her inner experiences. Both of these friends were spiritually
oriented. Today, one of those two friends called. Her friend spoke about
herself that she wanted to keep a simple religious discipline at home but
for some reason was feeling like backing off from religious topic, at least
for a while. She felt that she needed to focus on her job and do that well.
Today there was no dialogue from Baba and no blue light, so Dolly
started wondering if this was another way of Baba to give her the
message to focus on job and back off from the meditation. Because Baba
in his books always emphasized doing your duty, and your dharma
(focusing on your job does fall in that category). Other thought that
crossed her mind that maybe Baba was testing her; maybe there was
nothing to it and it was essentially her friend's message for herself.
After a little discussion we concluded that she needed more
confidence in her own experiences, because she was told not to waste
time and meditate four times a day etc. how can the directive change so
rapidly from four times a day to back off ? She prayed asking Baba to
give her the sense and wisdom to understand all His messages properly,
accurately, and timely.
Tuesday, January 13, 1998
During the meditation Baba said "The advice to back off was for her
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