Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

Monday, January 05, 1998
"Shivangini, don't experience yourself, your thoughts and feelings as
something separated from the rest. This is an optical delusion of the
consciousness restricting your love and affection for a few people.
Widen your circle of compassion. Love all living creatures. Identify not
with a fragment but with the whole. Cease all conflicts and divisions."
Tuesday, January 06, 1998
Something to be described here actually had started sometimes last
year in the month of October. During her daily puja, she touched the feet
of the deities one by one and after touching the feet she touched her
forehead with both hands. And, at that time out of devotion she also
closed her eyes. Every time she touched the deities’ feet and closed the
eyes; with closed eyes she saw a lit up image of the same deity. Over a
period of time this image kept getting brighter and clearer. She noticed
that if she took a deep breath during the time of closing her eyes the
image became even brighter and it did not fade out for a longer period of
time.
Today during Puja, as she touched Shirdi Baba's feet she took a deep
breath and held it to keep that image brighter and for longer time. At this
she felt a little discomfort in her chest but did not think much of it.
Everyday Puja was followed with meditation. In meditation, today,
she used the technique that Baba suggested yesterday. Baba asked her to
imagine Akasha (sky), stay focused and go far. First she found it difficult
to do that but later she was able to see the ocean and the sky beyond. She
was also able to go very far and at some far point she saw a very intense
thunder like light pattern filling the sky. As she saw this she felt an
intense pain in her chest. Baba asked her to mentally come back and
focus on the location of pain in her chest and concentrate in a clockwise
motion around it. She followed the instructions and that eased her pain.
Baba said "This pain was not due to what you saw and did in the
meditation. It is due to holding your breath during puja, never do that
again."
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