Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

her trance with a sprinkle of holy water. After that she tried meditation
again till 5 but not much happened.
She did not wait at the mandir for the 6 AM Abhisekam and left for
home around 5:10 AM; reached home at 6:10; woke up the kids for
school. Shobun was still sick so could not go to school. Raeshum
purposely missed her first and second hour of school because she wanted
to be at home with Mom and Shobun. Later Dolly sent her to school for
rest of the day.
After keeping awake all night Dolly was ready to hit the sack. Just
before going to sleep that morning, she sat in front of the mandir, closed
her eyes, and that is when she received all the important messages from
Baba. Baba said "Why are you so disappointed? You are disappointed
because you wanted Kundalini to arise, you wanted to acquire yogic
powers, and you wanted the miracles. What exactly you would have
done with those powers, a public display of your achievements? What I
promised to you, you already have received that. The knots in your
chakras are loosened, there has been an expansion on your limits, and
you will be able to do what is necessary to help me in the task that is cut
out for you. You want a proof that what I promised did happen. See for
yourself." At this point she started seeing again some interesting patterns
of blackish blue light which seemed like a magnified view of the
previously seen light and it also gave a feeling as if some liquid is rapidly
bubbling inside her. Baba continued further "Shivaratri was the time goal
for your spiritual growth. God is not bound by time or space. Whatever
is my wish and sankalp it happens no matter who or what may come in
the way. Blessing is on your name, you cannot lose. You need to
continue your Sadhana, self inquiry and meditation are the ways to fully
develop virtuous qualities. Examine yourself and you will find that out
of the seventeen virtues you have been able to follow only fourteen. You
still need to master the remaining three virtues. Surrender is not limited
to words it should be in thoughts and actions also. Align yourself with
God's will, if you have unshakable faith you will be able to take the
success and failure with equanimity. Shivangini, have faith and be
patient."
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