Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

had to be finished between now and Shivaratri. I asked whether to spend
time – meditating all day or writing. Baba said "Do not worry about
meditation. Do a little bit. Do writing tomorrow. Today I want you to
read about the virtues and measure yourself against each one of them." I
understood that Baba was asking me to read the book written by Al
Drucker and go over each of the virtues described there. Further Baba
said "Use your viveka that is what it is for. If you have the surrender
there is no need to worry about what will happen to Raeshum and
Shobun after the Shivaratri day. You better know that they are my
children. I will take care of them. Whatever you need to do, do it. Next
day morning you need not rush back home, stay at the mandir for the
Abhisekam. If Raeshum misses 1 hour of school it is not a big deal. Even
if both of them miss 1 full day of school it is not a big deal. Remember to
include incense along with other things that you will be taking to the
mandir."
Further in today's meditation Baba emphasized the importance of
surrender by stopping me from using any specific technique to
concentrate. First when he stopped I thought probably I was not doing it
right so I asked how exactly was I suppose to do it. At this Baba said
"Don't do anything. Let things happen. I am asking you not to do
anything, no effort, just surrender. I am doing what needs to be done."
At the end of meditation an interesting thing happened today. It was
not the usual light that I saw but a molten liquid like flow of something
which was changing shape. That liquid gave a pleasant feeling. At that
point Baba said "My flow of thought to you will never cease. Everybody
has that inner voice and you have learned to hear it. You will not unlearn
it."
Then He said "Go find me in every inch of space inside you." He
prompted me to go a circle from the top of my head to every part of
myself and going around and following this tiny pointed light. Right
after that He said "Up until now it was OK to have unquestioning mind.
From now on I want you to question what you learn, that is how you will
develop wisdom."
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