Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile
Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile
Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile
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on each chakra I felt as if ants were crawling at that chakra. Today that<br />
light I saw in meditation was not clear blue like it usually is. It was more<br />
like a cloudy day with snakeskin like specks. My mind was going every<br />
which other way but I was chasing it and bringing it back. Concentration<br />
was not good today.<br />
Baba said "Last Shivaratri one of your chakras knot was loosened<br />
which allowed all the spiritual progress that has been made. Outsiders<br />
could not tell what was happening with you, you should not be expecting<br />
miracles on Shivaratri. What will happen, will happen and it will not be<br />
visible. You need not worry." Last night <strong>Gyani</strong> and I were discussing as<br />
to what will happen on Shivaratri and we were nervous and we<br />
concluded that it must be the reason for this assurance from Baba.<br />
Tuesday, February 24, 1998<br />
In <strong>Dolly</strong>'s words:<br />
5:45 A.M.: I woke up at 3:50 A.M. for meditation. <strong>Gyani</strong> had to go to<br />
Mexico for business trip and I woke up early to do meditation so that I<br />
would be done with meditation before taking him to the airport. I did not<br />
start out with puja today. Baba asked me to sit down for meditation.<br />
Meditation was excellent today with lots of messages from Baba. It is<br />
becoming obvious that everyday Baba picks one of the virtues as a<br />
theme and tests me, guides me around that virtue. Today's theme<br />
appeared to be love and devotion to God and total surrender. Baba said<br />
"You need to develop total surrender." "You need to come to me with<br />
full love and devotion. You need to come to me wanting to be with me<br />
for my love. Not just for these tantalizing goals. You are looking for<br />
some results. All you are doing is sitting down meditating for certain<br />
results and certain things to happen. That is not what you want." I<br />
understood what was being said and then changing the topic I asked<br />
"Baba, how should I be spending my time between today and tomorrow?<br />
What should I be doing? I have to go to this meeting at work that I can't<br />
avoid." Baba said "I want you to spend all day with me today. May be<br />
you can have S (a person at work, in my group) attend the meeting for<br />
you, that will get your work done. You don't need to go there." I told<br />
Baba about the writing that was still pending and according to Him it<br />
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