Gyani Baile & Dolly Baile

say good bye to Gyani and children." Later she and I discussed and
thought that we need to give a hint to her mom and her friend Pushpa in
case something drastic was to happen. We also decided to share little
more with the kids so that they would be better prepared for whatever
happens in future.
Baba told her "During meditation do not make the effort to remember
things because that way you cannot go into Trance." She was starting to
think how she would do meditation in the mandir on the Shivaratri day,
what would she start with…Bhajan or meditation? Baba said "Do not
plan. Things will happen the way they are supposed to happen and you
are not supposed to worry about it." She asked Baba if we are doing OK
on the writing responsibility he gave us as far as capturing the
experiences and messages. Baba pointed out all those things that had
happened but somehow we had forgot to include in our write up (all
those now have been included in the book).
Monday, February 23, 1998
In Dolly's words:
4:30 - 6 A.M. meditation: It was difficult to keep the mind totally
calm. Not a lot happened in terms of Baba's message, only a couple of
things worth mentioning. "Remember Shivangini yesterday how much
you could hear in less than 15 minutes. Today you have been here for
such a long time. If something were to happen it can happen rapidly.
This is a lesson in patience for you. Try calming your mind for longer
periods of time." I understood that developing patience will also help
reduce my restlessness and excessive action oriented behavior at the
gross level. "Always cook the food at medium heat. As a Sanyasin you
should not eat food cooked at high heat. Food impacts at subtle and
causal level. How you would see and feel things would be greatly
affected by what you eat, and you should not take this lightly." I felt that
it was more applied to me than to others in general.
Something happened today. Up until now I had a feeling of being
swollen up inside. This morning I felt as if I suddenly shrank internally.
Baba did not say anything about it. During meditation as I concentrated
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