Equinox I (04).pdf

MY LADY OF THE BREECHES
full knowledge. Lionel felt within himself a tenacious
longing, a perpetual desire. His lack of physical courage as
counterbalanced by his intellectual daring; he meant to collar
the Angel, and to re-enter the Paradise of that first victim of
womanhood, Adam of the bent shoulders, Adam of the foolish
resignation to the self-preserving decree of the frightened
divinities.
His errors of tactics were caused by the fact that he hoped
to test the apple without the help of Woman. Often enough,
Lionel Tabard unwittingly repelled the advances of many a
feminine would-be initiator.
VI*
THE LOVER
BUT he was not prompted by the wisdom of a Master; merely
by cowardice and self-consciousness. He could not command
love and desires; the angels of love and desires therefore
digged a deep trap before his feet . . .
Tabard was sitting in the verandah. The men had gone to
bed, the women also. He lighted his pipe, the use of which a
life in open air had permitted his lungs to tolerate. He was
thinking, pondering, meditating upon the most important
matter in life, the personal one. He looked at his hands,
white, well shaped, well kept, but the left retaining a stiffer
and curved appearance. Lionel felt ashamed of himself. He
took his watch in his hand and looked at the time of night.
* For reasons which are obvious to anyone who has mixed the Gluten
of the White Eagle with the Red Powder, or accomplished the Third
Projection, the order of the Tarot trumps cannot any longer be preserved.
Nor will their number exceed seven.
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