Lilith

I stood silent: she had struck me dumb with beauty; she held me dumb with sweetness.
Taking me by the hand, she drew me to the spot of light, and again flashed upon me. An instant she stood
there.
"You have grown brown since last I saw you," she said.
"This is almost the first roof I have been under since you left me," I replied.
"Whose was the other?" she rejoined.
"I do not know the woman's name."
"I would gladly learn it! The instinct of hospitality is not strong in my people!" She took me again by the
hand, and led me through the darkness many steps to a curtain of black. Beyond it was a white stair, up which
she conducted me to a beautiful chamber.
"How you must miss the hot flowing river!" she said. "But there is a bath in the corner with no white leeches
in it! At the foot of your couch you will find a garment. When you come down, I shall be in the room to your
left at the foot of the stair."
I stood as she left me, accusing my presumption: how was I to treat this lovely woman as a thing of evil, who
behaved to me like a sister?−−Whence the marvellous change in her? She left me with a blow; she received
me almost with an embrace! She had reviled me; she said she knew I would follow and find her! Did she
know my doubts concerning her−−how much I should want explained? COULD she explain all? Could I
believe her if she did? As to her hospitality, I had surely earned and might accept that−−at least until I came
to a definite judgment concerning her!
Could such beauty as I saw, and such wickedness as I suspected, exist in the same person? If they could,
HOW was it possible? Unable to answer the former question, I must let the latter wait!
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Clear as crystal, the water in the great white bath sent a sparkling flash from the corner where it lay sunk in
the marble floor, and seemed to invite me to its embrace. Except the hot stream, two draughts in the cottage
of the veiled woman, and the pools in the track of the wounded leopardess, I had not seen water since leaving
home: it looked a thing celestial. I plunged in.
Immediately my brain was filled with an odour strange and delicate, which yet I did not altogether like. It
made me doubt the princess afresh: had she medicated it? had she enchanted it? was she in any way working
on me unlawfully? And how was there water in the palace, and not a drop in the city? I remembered the
crushed paw of the leopardess, and sprang from the bath.
What had I been bathing in? Again I saw the fleeing mother, again I heard the howl, again I saw the limping
beast. But what matter whence it flowed? was not the water sweet? Was it not very water the pitcher−plant
secreted from its heart, and stored for the weary traveller? Water came from heaven: what mattered the well
where it gathered, or the spring whence it burst? But I did not re−enter the bath.
I put on the robe of white wool, embroidered on the neck and hem, that lay ready for me, and went down the
stair to the room whither my hostess had directed me. It was round, all of alabaster, and without a single
window: the light came through everywhere, a soft, pearly shimmer rather than shine. Vague shadowy forms
went flitting about over the walls and low dome, like loose rain−clouds over a grey−blue sky.
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