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Seeing the horse and the elephants clambering up behind us−−
"Take those animals to the royal stables," he added; "there tend them; then turn them into the king's forest."
"Welcome home!" he said to us, bending low with the sweetest smile.
Immediately he turned and led the way higher. The scales of his armour flashed like flakes of lightning.
Thought cannot form itself to tell what I felt, thus received by the officers of heaven***. All I wanted and
knew not, must be on its way to me!
We stood for a moment at the gate whence issued roaring the radiant river. I know not whence came the
stones that fashioned it, but among them I saw the prototypes of all the gems I had loved on earth−−far more
beautiful than they, for these were living stones −−such in which I saw, not the intent alone, but the intender
too; not the idea alone, but the imbodier present, the operant outsender: nothing in this kingdom was dead;
nothing was mere; nothing only a thing.
We went up through the city and passed out. There was no wall on the upper side, but a huge pile of broken
rocks, upsloping like the moraine of an eternal glacier; and through the openings between the rocks, the river
came billowing out. On their top I could dimly discern what seemed three or four great steps of a stair,
disappearing in a cloud white as snow; and above the steps I saw, but with my mind's eye only, as it were a
grand old chair, the throne of the Ancient of Days. Over and under and between those steps issued,
plenteously, unceasingly new−born, the river of the water of life.
The great angel could guide us no farther: those rocks we must ascend alone!
My heart beating with hope and desire, I held faster the hand of my Lona, and we began to climb; but soon
we let each other go, to use hands as well as feet in the toilsome ascent of the huge stones. At length we drew
near the cloud, which hung down the steps like the borders of a garment, passed through the fringe, and
entered the deep folds. A hand, warm and strong, laid hold of mine, and drew me to a little door with a
golden lock. The door opened; the hand let mine go, and pushed me gently through. I turned quickly, and saw
the board of a large book in the act of closing behind me. I stood alone in my library.
CHAPTER XLVII. THE "ENDLESS ENDING"
As yet I have not found Lona, but Mara is much with me. She has taught me many things, and is teaching me
more.
Can it be that that last waking also was in the dream? that I am still in the chamber of death, asleep and
dreaming, not yet ripe enough to wake? Or can it be that I did not go to sleep outright and heartily, and so
have come awake too soon? If that waking was itself but a dream, surely it was a dream of a better waking
yet to come, and I have not been the sport of a false vision! Such a dream must have yet lovelier truth at the
heart of its dreaming!
In moments of doubt I cry,
"Could God Himself create such lovely things as I dreamed?"
"Whence then came thy dream?" answers Hope.
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"Out of my dark self, into the light of my consciousness."
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