Conversations with Avant-garde Sages - The Wizard LLC

Conversations with Avant-garde Sages
madly in love with an old beat up chair, with a pencil, with your
toenail, with the sound of the rain on the windowpane, and even
with a person that you've been married to for 35 years for whom
there’s little mystery left. It's in the shining of love, and the giving
of love, that we are filled with love, because the source is within us.
When the source is within us, then the only way you can really get
filled with love is to give it. Anytime you try to get love, it has the
opposite effect of making you feel more lacking. [Laughs]
WIZARD: That's a rocky road.
NIRMALA: It is.
TRIP: I've tried a few times.
NIRMALA: Trying to fill yourself with love from the outside is like
trying to fill up a very leaky bucket with a hose. You can stand
there for hours, and the bucket never fills up.
WIZARD: Boy, I've been there a lot, my God, you wouldn't
believe.
NIRMALA: It sucks trying to fill yourself up with love from the
outside. It’s a fundamental structure that what we are at the core
is this emptiness, and so anything you put in there is going to
dissolve. It's like the leaky bucket, you put love in there, and it
dissolves back into emptiness. But when something comes out of
it, it moves from emptiness into form, and so when this emptiness
moves as love, when you give your attention, and your acceptance,
and your curiosity to something else, then this emptiness moves
out of you into the form and the quality of love, including all of the
joy, and pleasure, and satisfaction that brings. So it's the flow
from emptiness outward that fills us. The inward flow from the
outside is a movement from form back into emptiness, and so it
never fills us up. You can't ever fill up something that is as
profoundly empty as the emptiness inside of us.
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