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Conversations with Avant-garde Sages
there were strong beliefs that this is true or that is true, or
whatever, and there wasn't just surrendering in Faith.
And after the near death experience all that fell away because it
was irrelevant, and there was just a very strong and fierce, this is
who I am, and like it or not, but this is life's purpose and it needs
to be fulfilled, and there's no time to be wasted. And the
preciousness of it was just so immense that there was no ego to
come in to say, what if so and so, my cousin, or whatever, doesn't
like it. There wasn't anything of that anymore, it just all fell away,
and became very, very natural, and it became a strong decision as
well. But an inner decision without volition again, it just became
no choice but to be that. There was no more other way.
And I wanted to touch on very briefly about what you said earlier
about teachers, because I loved what you just said, and I've seen
the same. I've observed for example at one Satsang in Maryland
last year, when dear Adyashanti came, and it was very, very
painful for me and I left a little bit early, and I love Adyashanti, I
love his writings, such a great sense of humor, such a normal,
down to earth, completely normal.
But what really, really bothered me in a way was that the people at
that particular Satsang, I mean the economy was bad, and still is,
and there were lots of things going on in that area, but it felt like it
was very clear that people were putting themselves beneath him,
and did not feel a sense of equality. And he tried everything all
evening long to dismantle that and to deconstruct that, and to
encourage everybody to see their own beauty and to let them just
shine. He let them sit next to him, and he tried everything, and he
was successful in many cases to break through that feeling less
than, but in general at that particular evening, I haven't seen the
same many times, but that particular evening there was a feeling
of lesser than and looking up to the guru, and there was a selfmade
sense of separation, and a self construct. It was just so
completely unnecessary, because it could have been such a
beautiful joining of equals.
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