Conversations with Avant-garde Sages - The Wizard LLC

Conversations with Avant-garde Sages
TRIP: Well there is another aspect to your ordeal, which was that
you took an inner vow that you spoke about. And I wanted to just
contrast your inner vow with a less evolved vow that I took once
when I was in college, just so people can know what a beautiful
person you are in the midst of that crisis. Not to go on my person
thing, but when I was in college my girlfriend thought that she had
gotten pregnant, and she missed a few cycles, and it was very
disconcerting to her, and to me. So I said to God, I said, "God, if
you will get me through the thing and not make my girlfriend
pregnant, I promise I will get to know you and I will read the
bible", that was my vow.
MAREN SPRINGSTEEN: That is stunningly beautiful; I really,
really appreciate hearing that, thank you for sharing.
TRIP: Well I just want to say though, I did not end up reading the
bible, but I did ultimately get to know God and I threw my entire
heart into that. But I wanted to say that when you were in the
midst of dying, okay, you made an inner vow, but there was no, if
you save me Gold, pledge in there, you just wanted to be able to
share the beautiful Truth of who we are with others, isn't that
correct?
MAREN SPRINGSTEEN: Not quite actually, Trip. I think your
vow is much more powerful than mine was to be honest, really,
really hats off to you. Because I honestly have to say that my vow
was nothing special, and it didn’t come by volition, it came to my
total surprise, completely unasked for, by itself. I resisted having
this tube in my belly for the longest time, because I wanted to lead
a totally normal life, and didn't want to face up to the fact that I
couldn't swallow fluids anymore, thanks to God I can still eat and I
enjoy that. But I was at the outpatient center for the longest time
every day getting IV drips with water, and I was surrounded by
AIDS and cancer patients, and I was very clear about that I was
still very, very lucky, and I tried to cheer up the other patients and
bond with them. And speaking with them and realizing what they
had to deal with and that what my ordeal was nothing in
comparison, it really was very little in comparison.
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