Conversations with Avant-garde Sages - The Wizard LLC

Conversations with Avant-garde Sages
bingeing around food, or dieting around food, when the thought
comes up, I want a chocolate bar, or I want some food, like the
urge is so strong it's almost impossible to stop it. Sometimes I
suppose it can be… that's maybe not such a good analogy because I
can hear people saying, no, sometimes I can stop it, sometimes I
can't.
But if you look at the human, they're always in every moment just
responding to these urges coming up, the urges that are written.
And if you go back to where does this urge come from, can I
control where this urge come from? Then another thought says,
yes, I can control this urge. But then what is it that's controlling
that next urge, where is it coming from? Who is at the root of all
these urges that are coming up?
So with the murderer and the pedophile, and somebody that's
doing bad actions, they're just doing what is written in them, what
they're programmed to do, what is coming up. And then
somebody will say that they could stop themselves, but who is it
that could stop themselves, another thought, another idea? Only if
it's written would that idea come up to stop that next idea. It's just
like when you see that your thoughts are coming from nowhere,
your thoughts aren't controlled by an entity that's called Lisa, or
Trip, or whoever, then you see that these thoughts that are
coming, these urges that are coming, are so incredible impersonal,
there's nobody there at the root of them saying, I can control this, I
can do good actions, or bad actions, that thought is coming from
no place, that thought is coming from an empty space. It's just
what is written. And it feels like because we are written, we're
these amazing programs which are written with a sense of
doership, with a sense of free will. It isn't free will, but it feels like
free will, it feels like when you go to the fridge, you can choose
orange juice or apple juice, but that's not the Truth, because where
does that choice come from? If you follow it back, it comes from
nowhere, there's nobody in there choosing. And then there's
another thought underneath saying, yes, I'm the chooser here,
where did that chooser come from; it's an endless like line. And
here, in Now, still there's I suppose the appearance of free will, it's
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