Conversations with Avant-garde Sages - The Wizard LLC

Conversations with Avant-garde Sages
unacceptable to you is accepted by life. What's even accepted, and
this is what really changed everything for me in a way, this
recognition that even my non-acceptance in this moment, it's
always this moment, it's only ever this moment, the ocean is only
ever in this moment. In this moment even my non-acceptance
ultimately is already accepted. So this is crucial, this goes back to
what I was saying about trying to accept pain and not being able to
accept pain, and then feeling, yuck, because I haven't been able to
accept pain. So the pain is accepted but what's also accepted in
this moment is my inability, my failure to accept pain. That's like
really exquisite, that's grace in a way. Even in my failure I am
accepted, even in my total failure to escape this moment, even in
my total failure to be free from pain in this moment, in my failure
to accept I am accepted.
WIZARD: So every action, every thought, every deed, every
situation is already perfect accepted.
JEFF FOSTER: Absolutely. And it's when we don't see that, so it's
about seeing it, but when we don't see that, that's where suffering,
that's the origin of suffering is not seeing that acceptance, not
seeing this already accepted nature of personal experience.
Basically, as I was saying before: not seeing completeness in
present experience. That's just another word, completeness; it's
another word I use. Not seeing completeness in this experience
we seek, we go into the world of time and space; we seek
completeness in time, in the future. So there's no comprehension
of completeness Now, but in the next moment or tomorrow, one
day I'll be complete. And that's really the beginning of our
suffering.
So coming back to Trip, to what you said about the child's
tantrum, this seeking can begin at a very young age, this attempt
to escape present moment. I think very, very young children;
babies, maybe that acceptance is there. But I think very quickly,
especially when we become toddlers, that mechanism, that seeking
mechanism, is probably already in place, that attempt to escape
the present moment. Basically the sense that some feelings are
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