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Conversations with Avant-garde Sages
around. So there is this feeling inside that everything should be
the way I want, and if it's not the way I want then that means it's
wrong. And if it is the way I want, it's not enough, and then the
judge inside always looks at the instant situations of people and
always decides is it not enough, or is it wrong, should they protect,
defend, argue. It's like a little virus, I can say, this judging thing.
Gradually for me it felt I don't judge anymore, I don't think what
should be tomorrow like, what will be wrong if that happens, or
what in the past happened that was really bad. These thoughts fell
off, so the judge is really connected to the I-thought, where the I is
the central mechanism that decides how you should live your life.
Because if you don't live like that, like the I wants, it's wrong, it
should be fought, it should be judged, and it should be the way I
wants. And this is how people live their life.
WIZARD: Beautiful, beautiful.
PAUL NAGY: I want to chime here a little bit. Often people
confuse what's called conscience which is one's actual moral
compass of what is best for one's self and for others. This blaming
sense of conversation that you may have in yourself, which is an
aspect, a worry, or a judgment, which is actually what Freud
meant when he talked about the super ego; it's part of the ego and
so it's job is to basically repeat over and over again judgments
about yourself that you've incorporated through your experience
habitually. They're not the same, and actually one of the insights,
because one thing is the conscience in the original meaning of the
term, which means consciousness, does represent a moral
compass, a thing in which allows sympathy for the suffering of
others. It's not necessarily crowded up with thoughts, judgments,
preconceptions, or worry about what other people would think
were, or how other people might judge you.
WIZARD: So is a dream consciousness?
ILONA CIUNATE: Yes.
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