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Chapter Forty-Four<br />
The Elements Will Recombine<br />
One day Meghiya spoke to the Buddha about Nanda’s unhappiness as a monk. Nanda had confided to Meghiya how much he missed his<br />
fiancée in Kapilavatthu. Nanda said, “I still remember the day I carried the Buddha’s bowl back to Nigrodha Park. As I was leaving,<br />
Janapada Kalyani looked into my eyes and said, ‘Hurry back. I will be waiting for you.’ I can so clearly recall the sheen of her black hair as<br />
it brushes her slender shoulders. Her image often arises during my sitting meditation. Every time I see her in my mind, I am filled with<br />
longing. I am not happy being a monk.”<br />
The next afternoon, the Buddha invited Nanda to go for a walk with him. They left Jetavana and headed towards a distant hamlet located<br />
by a lake. They sat on a large boulder that overlooked the crystal clear water. A family of ducks swam by leisurely. Birds sang in the<br />
overhanging branches of trees.<br />
The Buddha said, “Some of our brothers have t<strong>old</strong> me that you are not happy living the life of a bhikkhu. Is that true?”<br />
Nanda was silent. After a moment, the Buddha asked, “Do you feel ready to return to Kapilavatthu to prepare to take over the throne?”<br />
Nanda replied hastily, “No, no. I have already t<strong>old</strong> everyone that I do not like politics. I know I don’t have the ability to rule a kingdom.<br />
I do not wish to become the next king.”<br />
“Then why are you unhappy being a bhikkhu?”<br />
Again Nanda was silent.<br />
“Do you miss Kalyani?”<br />
Nanda blushed but he did not speak.<br />
The Buddha said, “Nanda, there are many young women here in Kosala as beautiful as your Kalyani. Do you remember the reception<br />
we attended at King Pasenadi’s palace? Did you notice any women there as pretty as Kalyani?”<br />
Nanda admitted, “Perhaps there are young women here as pretty as she is. But I care only for Kalyani. In this life there is only one<br />
Kalyani.”<br />
“Nanda, attachment can be a great barrier to spiritual practice. The physical beauty of a woman fades as surely as the beauty of a rose.<br />
You know that all things are impermanent. You must learn to penetrate the impermanent nature of things. Look.” The Buddha pointed to an<br />
<strong>old</strong> woman leaning on a cane and hobbling across the bamboo bridge. Her face was covered with wrinkles.<br />
“That <strong>old</strong> woman was surely once a beauty. Kalyani’s beauty will also fade with the years. During that same time your search for<br />
enlightenment could bring peace and joy for this life and lives to come. Nanda, look at the two monkeys playing over on that branch. You<br />
might not find the female attractive with her long, pointed snout and red bottom, but to the male she is the most beautiful monkey on earth.<br />
To him she is unique and he would sacrifice his very life to protect her. Can you see that—”<br />
Nanda interrupted the Buddha. “Please don’t say anything more. I understand what you are trying to say. I will devote myself more<br />
wholeheartedly to my practice.”<br />
The Buddha smiled at his younger brother. “Pay special attention to observing your breath. Meditate on your body, feelings, mental<br />
formations, consciousness, and objects of your consciousness. Look deeply in order to see the process of birth, growth, and fading of<br />
every phenomenon, from your own body, emotions, mind, and objects of your mind. If there is anything you don’t understand, come and<br />
ask me or Sariputta. Nanda, remember that the happiness liberation brings is true, unconditional happiness. It can never be destroyed.<br />
Aspire to that happiness.”<br />
The sky was growing dark. The Buddha and Nanda stood and walked back to the monastery.<br />
Jetavana now hosted a strong and stable monastic life. The number of bhikkhus living there had risen to five hundred. The following year<br />
the Buddha returned to Vesali for the retreat season. The Licchavi princes had transformed Great Forest into a monastery. They had built a<br />
two-story Dharma hall with a roof, which they named Kutagara. A number of smaller buildings were scattered throughout the forest of sal<br />
trees. The princes were the sponsors of the retreat season with generous contributions from Ambapali.<br />
Bhikkhus throughout Magadha and as far away as Sakya gathered to spend the retreat season there with the Buddha. They numbered<br />
six hundred in all. Lay disciples traveled to spend the rainy season there, as well, in order to receive the Buddha’s teaching. They brought<br />
daily food offerings and attended all the Dharma talks.