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CHAPTER 9. DUKE HWAN AND THE WHEELRIGHT
attention to the doubt, pay much attention to trust. Then the energy moves to trust, and the trust
becomes a chain. By and by, the energy from doubt is absorbed by the energy in trust.
Remember, one has to sow the seeds. If you wait, and say: When doubt is no more then I will sow
the seeds of trust, then you will never sow the seeds.
.... You must have heard, somebody might have told you that this Gautama had become enlightened.
You must have laughed, you must have said: Nobody becomes enlightened, these are just stories
that people go on creating. And I know this Gautama, I even know his father. I know his family and
I cannot believe because I am a sceptic, I am a rational man. Without reasoning I cannot move a
single step.
Not only with Buddha – you were there when Jesus was there, you were there when Chuang Tzu
was there. You have always been here, but you have missed many times. Why? The reason is
always the same – you cannot trust. You go on finding arguments against taking the jump; and there
are infinite possibilities to go on finding arguments again and again and again. Because once you
feed doubt it becomes a cancerous growth – then it perpetuates itself, there is no need to help it. It
is a cancerous growth, it goes on and on, and it grows. The same thing happens with trust.
So remember that it is not a question of ’When there is no doubt then I will trust.’ It is impossible,
that time will never come. You have to trust while doubt is there. And look at the beauty of it, if you
can trust while doubt is there – and this is how human mind is, frail, weak, divided, you have to trust
while doubt is there if you can trust while doubt is there, it means that you pay more attention to trust
and less attention to doubt; you are indifferent to doubt, your whole attention is toward trust. Then a
day comes when the doubt has disappeared, because if you don’t give attention you don’t give food
– attention is food. If you don’t give attention the doubt cannot persist in its chain. But you always
find reasons. The ego always says: Don’t surrender, don’t let go. What are you doing? You will be
lost. And you never think that you are already lost. Where are you?
You must have met a person who is known as an auto-nut. There are persons who simply enjoy
driving, they are auto-nuts. They will go from Bombay to Delhi, non stop, and the first thing they will
say on reaching Delhi is: We made it in twenty four hours. This is an auto nut.
Once it happened that an auto-nut was driving me somewhere. He was going fast, at a mad speed
along the highway. And we were supposed to reach a village by the afternoon. But we had not
reached it and it was already evening. So I looked at the map and told him that it seemed that he
had taken a wrong route. He said: Don’t bother about the map, it does not matter. We are enjoying
the ride. And on he sped, without even stopping to look at the map.
There are people who simply go on moving fast, thinking that just by moving fast, they will reach
somewhere.
It is not movement that leads you somewhere, it is direction. It is not just by running that you will
reach your destiny; you may be running in a circle. Where have you reached? What have you got to
lose? Nothing whatsoever. Then why are you afraid? Afraid to lose nothing?
People come to me and they say it is difficult to surrender. I always look at them and simply cannot
understand what they are talking about, because they have nothing to surrender, nothing to lose,
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