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CHAPTER 8. THE TURTLE
You don’t know that you are postponing – and the postponing becomes a habit. When it has become
bigger the same mind will say: Still more is possible. And the same mind will go on postponing until
death knocks at your door. Then you will be surprised: I have been wasting my whole life with
’oughts’ and the ’is’ was there. And the ’is’ is beautiful. The ’is’ is the only religion for Chuang Tzu.
The conflict between ’is’ and ’ought’ is very foundational. If you can drop your ’ought’ you may not
be as respectable as you are right now. Because of your ’ought’, people respect you. They say,
’This man is beautiful, he is never angry, he always smiles,’ and they don’t know that those smiles
are false because a man who can never be angry cannot be truly smiling. This is the problem – if
he is not authentic in his anger, he cannot be authentic in his smile.
Children are authentic; when they are angry they are really angry. You look at them – their anger is
beautiful. They become just like wild animals, jumping and screaming, their faces completely red.
They are like lions, they would destroy the whole world at that moment. Their anger is true, and
whatsoever is true is beautiful.
Look at a child when he is angry, just watch him and you will see a beautiful flowering, a flowering
of strength, power, energy – energy moving. And the next moment the child is happy, smiling. Now
the smile is also true, now his smile is also beautiful; whatsoever is natural is beautiful. Your kiss will
be just a poison, it will be poisonous. How can you love? How can you enjoy sheer being? No, you
cannot do anything. Now you can only follow – oughts, shoulds, and should nots.
You are afraid to live, you go on postponing – somewhere in the future you will live; and because of
this postponing you have created heaven and hell. Heaven is your final postponement of everything
that is worth living for.
You say that in heaven there is eternal beauty; the eternal beauty is here and now, not in heaven. If
you smile – just stand before a mirror and smile – you will see that behind your smile there is anger,
there is sadness, there is lust; it is not pure. It cannot be, because the very source is poisoned.
Nothing is pure – not only are things in the market adulterated, you are adulterated. Then you
cannot smile, and if you cannot smile, how can you kiss? But you say to the child: Don’t be angry,
suppress your anger. This is not good, you are not supposed to be angry. But who is this who is
supposing these things? Is there any possibility to go beyond nature? Who are you?
At the most, you can do this one thing – you can force him.A child is helpless, if you force him he will
have to follow you. He is weak, he depends on you because you can withdraw your love. He needs
your love, he will have to follow you. When he feels angry he will not express it, now the anger will
move into the blood. And because anger is chemical, his whole body will be poisoned. Expressed,
it was a beautiful phenomenon; suppressed, it is disease. Now, when he smiles, this smile will carry
that anger, the poison; now it is in the blood. And you have suppressed so much that whenever you
want to smile, something withholds you, something is afraid in any sort of let-go, because a smile is
a let-go.
The eternal beauty is here and now, not in heaven. You say that in heaven love is pure and eternal
– love can be pure and eternal here and now, there is no need to wait for heaven. Wherever love is,
it is eternal and pure, because for love, time does not exist.
When the Shoe Fits 110 Osho