TELL May - July 2012 - Emanuel Synagogue
TELL May - July 2012 - Emanuel Synagogue
TELL May - July 2012 - Emanuel Synagogue
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Portrait<br />
Portrait of the Artist as an Old Man*<br />
Your eyes are lidded in prayer, old man.<br />
You embrace the song like a man embraces his<br />
wife, tenderly, with the want, the need, written all over<br />
your face. A woman loves this sort of humility.<br />
You embrace the song like a man who rises at<br />
dawn, cocoons himself in his tallit with its blue-threaded<br />
tzitziyot, and cries out for help. The Holy One, blessed be<br />
He, loves this sort of humility.<br />
You embrace the song like a man who lies down at<br />
night and sings his Shema, in the face of his bewilderment<br />
and failures. Life loves this sort of humility.<br />
The Presence comes down.<br />
All the people feel it.<br />
Your head is covered, and your eyes are lidded in<br />
prayer, old man.<br />
I saw you. I saw you standing on the beach,<br />
watching them build. I saw you waving your arms<br />
frantically, but they wouldn’t listen. They built a wooden<br />
tower of exotic shape, Semitic, Greek, Roman. He did not<br />
fit it, so they cut off his manhood and threw it into the<br />
sea. They cut off his Jewish body, and made him into a<br />
god’s head. They made themselves into a god’s body. He<br />
raged, stricken with grief.<br />
And Suzanne goes on making her cups of pretend<br />
tea while the oranges fade in her hand.<br />
The river is frozen solid, yet still his tears are warm.<br />
And the children leaning out for love<br />
Are ravished without mercy.<br />
The Presence has fled.<br />
<strong>May</strong>be I’ll include razor blades when I sell the<br />
story.<br />
But it could have a happy ending. As Buber says,<br />
maybe one day we’ll be brought in from the exiles of<br />
the religions. <strong>May</strong>be one day we’ll all come in from the<br />
cold. It looks wintry out, the clouds lie low. Have another<br />
peach.<br />
You know, I’m beginning to understand that you<br />
can’t have G-d without reality. You can’t make reality<br />
up. You have to deal with the actual, or you’re embracing<br />
self-deception, you’re kissing the hem of evil. My<br />
Catholic upbringing made the metaphysical world realer<br />
than real. The flesh and blood world was little more<br />
than a shadow. Parmenides and Plato reclined on their<br />
heavenly couch, overlooking all things. Down there, in<br />
the City of Man, it didn’t matter if you killed a Jew, or<br />
screwed a child. Three Hail Marys: she’ll be sweet. We<br />
were on the way to perfection; the ideal, and only the<br />
ideal, shimmered in our sights.<br />
A nice, buttery, melt-in-the-mouth, crispy-on-theoutside<br />
croissant for me. You too? Every woman has<br />
something to get off her chest. If you listen up, and wash<br />
the dishes, we’ll play.<br />
I am a lioness with your balls between my teeth.<br />
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Answer me this question and I won’t eat you up. How do<br />
you tell the difference between a real pearl and a fake<br />
one?<br />
You don’t know? I’m afraid it’s all over for you.<br />
Rrooouuwlll!!<br />
Oh, but you, you in your animal skin, you are the<br />
most wild thing of all. You have the South Sea Island<br />
pearl between my breasts between your teeth. Do you<br />
feel the gravel? A fake pearl feels smooth between the<br />
teeth.<br />
I sold my grass-green field, and all I had.<br />
I left beloved friends behind.<br />
Come, let’s get dressed, my muffler please, and<br />
walk. To be a Jew is to be the gravel, to see things, and<br />
deal with them, as they are. And talk about them, and<br />
irritate everyone. The voice helps. Life is all. It is all he has<br />
given us. The wind slices me into you. Let’s slip between<br />
the gingham curtains.<br />
Steaming coffee fills our nostrils like frankincense,<br />
while we sit here, in the café naked to each other; you, in<br />
your white flannel trousers; me, my arms wrapped about<br />
my shawl. Is that why the Presence is here? Because we<br />
are naked, I mean. I’ve been thinking, Leonard, that the<br />
Name is the ultimate reality, and that’s your allure. You<br />
deal the real. In the other place, they bake it, shake, it,<br />
make it, fake it.<br />
But you and I are here, where the wild things are. I<br />
smell mocha on your tongue and lust in every pore.<br />
If you don’t desire me, the very stones will cry out.<br />
Do you ever stand beneath a tree and look up to<br />
see its limbs spread in ecstasy, Elcohen, Eldushka? Only<br />
the sky gets to see. Ghost gums do it here, and maples<br />
on the forty-ninth parallel.<br />
The carnal Jews. The perfidious Jews.<br />
I’ll be a carnal Jew for you. I’ll be an inter-breeder.<br />
For you<br />
I will be a ghetto Jew<br />
and dance<br />
and put white stockings<br />
on my twisted limbs<br />
and poison wells<br />
across the town<br />
For you<br />
I will be a Dachau Jew<br />
and lie down in lime<br />
with twisted limbs<br />
and bloated pain<br />
* This prose poem weaves its way through this edition of<br />
<strong>TELL</strong>. Written by one of our members, we share it with you<br />
in celebration of dangerous ideas, and of the remarkable<br />
creativity found amongst those who make up our community.<br />
The portrait is (in part) of a particularly famous Jewish artist.<br />
See if you can work out who it is before you get to the end of<br />
the piece.