Issue 24 - September 2012 (PDF) - Chipping Norton Times
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14<br />
A Short Story by Nicholas John<br />
WAITING FOR SIX<br />
Women with pushchairs, dangling toddlers; old people<br />
wandering the aisles. I hate shopping. I mean it, I really<br />
hate shopping. And she knows it, lets me off gently,<br />
though I don't deserve it.<br />
"Why don't you just go and get a coffee? Meet<br />
you in the café, just give me twenty minutes, okay?"<br />
I mumble agreement. I can never find what I'm<br />
looking for anyway, even if I actually want anything. The<br />
escalator pitches me into the lingerie department, acres<br />
of nylon bras and huge posters of uplifts and frilly<br />
knickers. Men's Fashion in beige - New Men with cheery,<br />
self-satisfied grins and full heads of hair, dressed like<br />
they're off to dinner on the boss' yacht. But, look around,<br />
if you want a pair of elasticated trousers, you're in the<br />
right place. It occurs to me I need a new pair of slippers.<br />
Dislocation.<br />
"You could make more of an effort, couldn't you?<br />
You could just try and pretend to enjoy it at least. Treat it<br />
like a day out - "<br />
"What, like Alton Towers or the zoo?" I snap<br />
back. Unreasonable or unresponsive - which is it to be?<br />
"I'm having fun - no, honest, I am!" Spiteful and brittle.<br />
I'm an unbeliever in the temple of the godless.<br />
And I'm going to pick away at the pieces. Bit by bit, like a<br />
kid worrying at a scabbed knee. We both know that I'm<br />
not going to let it go, not till I've done some real damage.<br />
My father's son.<br />
"I sometimes think you do this on purpose," she<br />
says quietly while I stir my coffee, knowing it will never,<br />
ever taste any better.<br />
"Think what you like," I say, but she already has,<br />
probably in a previous lifetime. Her mother's daughter.<br />
In the precinct, the polished shine of marble<br />
floor leads to the Exit, where the High Street clings to the<br />
grey of the late afternoon. I see our reflections in shop<br />
front windows, but it's another, uncertain couple who<br />
stare back, adrift in an unknown world of their own<br />
making. The traffic's at a standstill and I'm two yards<br />
behind her, trying to avoid the cracks in the pavement.<br />
A red car has stopped in the entrance to the car<br />
park, just yards from the barrier, a woman sitting in the<br />
driver's seat. The woman's reading a book, but it's none<br />
of our business. I carry the bags toward the car: push<br />
change at the ticket machine, load the backseat, try to<br />
leave the sinking feeling behind, but it's lodged tight<br />
inside, immoveable.<br />
"What's she doing?"<br />
I turn around, half in, half out of the car.<br />
"Nothing, just sitting there."<br />
Two more vehicles have pulled up behind the red car, but<br />
it still doesn't move forward.<br />
"Do you think she's<br />
alright?"<br />
"Looked okay to me. She was<br />
reading."<br />
A lady gets out of the car behind. It's blocking the<br />
yellow, criss-crossed grid and she can't move forward or<br />
back. I momentarily lose sight of her behind the ticket<br />
machine as a first, few, small drops of rain begin, almost<br />
delicately, to fall.<br />
"What's going on now?"<br />
I don't reply, but I'm curious, a bystander. I can<br />
hear the shouting, see the arms waving, but I feel<br />
curiously detached, distanced, like I'm watching a play at<br />
the theatre. A comedy of errors. The red car finally<br />
lurches through the barrier.<br />
The second lady's furious: sees us watching.<br />
"She was waiting for six. Can you believe it? Six<br />
o'clock. Trying to save money, waiting for the evening<br />
rate." Shakes her head, gets back in her car. We look at<br />
each other and I look at my watch.<br />
"5.58."We both laugh and the tension releases<br />
like air from a valve and we grasp at this unexpected<br />
reprise. But it's short-lived.<br />
"You do that, you know," she says as she pulls out<br />
on to the main road.<br />
"Do what?" I know what's coming.<br />
"You know, find some stupid, forgotten principal<br />
and hang on for grim death."<br />
I glance sideways; she's smiling, but it's loaded. I<br />
don’t want to answer, because there's no point really.<br />
She's right after all. She always is. Here we go.<br />
" I can't help myself."<br />
"Try occasionally. You might feel better."<br />
"Don't bank on it - "<br />
She can read me like a book. And she reaches down<br />
inside and tears the page a little more.<br />
"You do it over and over, don't you? You're not<br />
content to let anything lie, are you?"<br />
"Not really, no - "<br />
"It's a game to you isn't it? And I can't play it any<br />
more. You just keep on pulling everything apart. Again<br />
and again, three, four, five times." She looks at me,<br />
hands gripping the wheel, joints whitening. "What are<br />
you doing now?"<br />
I'm staring straight ahead. The windscreen wipers<br />
click and scrape at the drizzle. We've reached some kind<br />
of crossroads.<br />
"Waiting for six." I say and close my eyes.<br />
Nicholas John©09/12