HP Lovecraft's Magazine of Horror - Weird Tales
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just stood there a bit taking in the tired scene: old regulars guzzling<br />
their paychecks, couple <strong>of</strong> Westies talking loud at the bar.<br />
What was to miss? When he brought my beer, Feeney nodded<br />
toward the low-lighted rear.<br />
“Back booth. That Carlos guy.”<br />
That was him all right. Cuban or Puerto Rican I’d guess,<br />
sallow with thinning black hair plastered down, new snowfall <strong>of</strong><br />
dandruff on the shoulders <strong>of</strong> a suit I’d be ashamed to steal.<br />
Carlos looked like he started worrying in the womb. His eyes<br />
never stayed on you but darted about nervously, grubby hands<br />
with nails bitten down to the quick, stubbing out a cigarette in<br />
an already crammed ashtray. But alive, breathing like me with<br />
his nose buried now in a pint <strong>of</strong> ale.<br />
“You’re Carlos.”<br />
“Danny Morris? About time.” He swallowed more ale and<br />
smacked his lips. “Runs like this I can at least get a decent<br />
drink. By the way, nice clean job on Lenihan.”<br />
“You work for Ender?”<br />
“Courier and conductor.”<br />
There was a familiar stamp on Carlos I knew from way<br />
back. “You got a cop look.”<br />
“Used to be. Undercover narcotics. You know, buy and<br />
bust, now and then dealt a little on the side. Goodbye job and<br />
pension.” Carlos finished his pint and checked his watch. “So<br />
what’s it to be, amigo? You with us?”<br />
Somehow the Yes stuck in my throat long enough for<br />
Carlos to frown with impatience. “Come on, Danny boy. We<br />
get lots <strong>of</strong> nobodys, but Ender says you’re special.”<br />
Half in hell already but I had to know something for sure.<br />
“He said Lenihan’s there now.”<br />
“Sure he is. We get lots <strong>of</strong> Lenihans.” A shade <strong>of</strong> boredom<br />
like Ender’s flitted over his wary narc expression. “Charley’s<br />
the usual pain in the ass.”<br />
“Usual?”<br />
“He’s an explainer like all the rest. They sit there alone<br />
telling the walls how nothing was ever right for them or their<br />
own fault, or how they could’ve done so much more if they had<br />
the breaks, and how their husband or wife dragged them<br />
down—get the picture? They spent their lives doing that number;<br />
why should now be different?”<br />
Carlos leaned back with a sigh. “They never knew anything<br />
else, like me, except I know it was me flushed my life down the<br />
john. They were all scared to die but more afraid to live when<br />
they had the chance.”<br />
Lenihan gone to his reward. I finished my beer, thinking<br />
okay, if my own life was a washout, at the end I got something<br />
right. “Screw it. Let’s go.”<br />
“Good man.” Carlos led the way past the bar but I tapped<br />
him at the door. “Wait outside. Want to say goodbye.” I leaned<br />
over the bar, my hand out to Feeney. “So long, Clary. Won’t be<br />
around for a while.”<br />
Feeney held onto my hand. He’s second generation, and<br />
now and then he just knows things as if he had the Sight. “Slan<br />
leat, Danny. I’ll be telling Father Reilly.”<br />
That really touched me, how he’d said goodbye in the old<br />
language. I remembered a few words <strong>of</strong> it from my dad. “Slan<br />
agat, Clary. God bless you in the morning.”<br />
From Ninth to Twelfth Avenue isn’t far. We ended up at<br />
the door to a run-down warehouse—locked, but whatever<br />
Carlos did, we had no trouble getting in. Not an impressive<br />
road to Hereafter.<br />
“This is where Timmy got whacked,” Carlos told me. “I<br />
collected him myself. Nice guy,” he added as he led me through<br />
the dust and shadows to a rust-stained metal door. “Just too<br />
trusting. Here we are.”<br />
We went down into a sub basement and then more subs<br />
underneath, each older and dimmer than the last. Past abandoned<br />
pipes, rotting asbestos and ancient machinery solid<br />
brown with rust. The last one had a bare dirt floor and feeble<br />
oil lamps along a passage more like a carved-out tunnel, always<br />
downward until it opened out into a space so vast I couldn’t see<br />
where it ended, if it did. The near part was gloomy enough<br />
under a cold bluish light.<br />
“How big is this place?’<br />
“Big as it needs to be.” Carlos kept moving. “Walk faster,”<br />
he snapped. “I don’t spend any more time down here than I<br />
have to.”<br />
As we went on toward wherever, I heard a blurred sound<br />
that grew louder until I recognized human voices, hundreds <strong>of</strong><br />
them. “What’s that?”<br />
Carlos clued me. “Like I told you, the explainers. That’s<br />
what they do.”<br />
“Just yak at each other all the time?”<br />
“At the walls. You heard ’em for years in Feeney’s.<br />
Nobody listened then; they don’t now.”<br />
It grew darker, but as we moved on I made out men and<br />
women sitting or standing alone, no two together but all <strong>of</strong><br />
them babbling urgently as if their whole existence depended on<br />
someone somewhere finally understanding—<br />
“ . . . he always beat me up bad when he was drunk, and I<br />
took it and took for years, what was I to do, until Harry come<br />
along, and, Jesus, it was only right after all Walter done to me<br />
that Harry and me would want each other. At the trial I said<br />
Harry killed Walter, the cops forced that out <strong>of</strong> me. Harry said<br />
I done it but it was both <strong>of</strong> us. Okay, I bashed Walter’s head in,<br />
but what else could I do . . . ?”<br />
Someone I recognized sat on a stool turned away from<br />
anyone close so he wouldn’t have to make any contact, I guess.<br />
Tony Fiore who used to collect for loan sharks in the ‘hood.<br />
Not a made Mafia guy but very persuasive at two hundred and<br />
twenty-five pounds. Broke a lot <strong>of</strong> arms and kneecaps in his<br />
time, but in this place Tony had shriveled to the nothing he was<br />
inside—<br />
“. . . I didn’t mean to lean on Hickey that hard, no way I<br />
meant to kill him, but he was a month behind and smelled <strong>of</strong><br />
what he was drinking up when he should’ve been paying, and I<br />
was sick <strong>of</strong> his bullshit, so . . . ”<br />
The worst, frightening thing about them all—they never<br />
stopped, these miserable leftovers. They were like tape loops<br />
spinning out their pathetic excuses and then, no pause at all,<br />
starting all over. None <strong>of</strong> them looked much like people any<br />
more but what Ender said they’d made <strong>of</strong> their lives, warped<br />
with decay. This place was a human garbage dump for people<br />
like abandoned cars, rusted and gutted. It was hell, and all I<br />
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