HP Lovecraft's Magazine of Horror - Weird Tales
HP Lovecraft's Magazine of Horror - Weird Tales
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36 H .P . L O V E C R A F T ’S M A G A Z IN E O F H O R R O R<br />
out to sleep in the store room. He poured me into a cab and<br />
took me home where I sobbed out the pain hanging on to<br />
Monigue, screaming how I should have taken better care <strong>of</strong><br />
Timmy, and now both <strong>of</strong> us were dead. She got me into bed,<br />
sympathetic but scared. She’d never seen me so soul-bleeding<br />
helpless before and couldn’t handle it: Good, white-bread<br />
Monique who had no darkness in her.<br />
That’s when everything changed for me, when it all started,<br />
what I did next and what I do now. The voice was tiny at<br />
first, a whisper in my mind: Timmy was calling me. All through<br />
the day, at work or with Monique, the thought kept coming<br />
back stronger each time. Timmy and I could always read each<br />
other with just a look, think the same thought together, but this<br />
was twilight zone.<br />
I started dreaming it, Timmy reaching out to me and<br />
mouthing my name with no sound. Again and again I dreamed<br />
it, not silent any more but Timmy pleading, calling to the only<br />
soul he ever had in this world to love or trust. Monique started<br />
to rag on me big time: Where was my head at? Why didn’t I<br />
ever think <strong>of</strong> her feelings sometimes, and she’d have no more<br />
<strong>of</strong> me coming home wrecked from Feeney’s, that place catered<br />
to a bad element . . . you get the picture. Sure, there was a bad<br />
element in Feeney’s, mine. She was beginning to nag like a wife.<br />
That split us for good. I kissed Monique bye-bye and moved<br />
back into the ’hood, but the dreams kept coming. One day I’m<br />
eating lunch in Burger King and Timmy’s voice came through<br />
so loud that I jumped.<br />
Danny, help me!<br />
I put down the sandwich and closed my eyes around the<br />
thought: Okay, Timmy. I hear you.<br />
I never thought for a minute I was crazy, just desperate<br />
enough by now to talk to Father Joe Reilly at St. Malachi’s, who<br />
confirmed Timmy and me when we were kids. <strong>Weird</strong> as it<br />
sounded, I gave it to him straight: Wherever Timmy was, he<br />
still needed me, and what could I do about it? Father Joe’s an<br />
understanding priest but wasn’t much help beyond suggesting<br />
the prayer for the dead that I couldn’t ever remember. Out <strong>of</strong><br />
habit, I headed for Feeney’s because that’s where homeys went<br />
for company and consolation, gossip, connections, who’s heard<br />
from relatives in Belfast, and anything else they might need to<br />
share.<br />
Clarence Feeney, bless him, is a hands-on owner and operator.<br />
Friday and Saturday nights he puts on extra bar help,<br />
maybe a waitress on St. Pat’s Day, but mostly he’s there himself<br />
watching the register because he doesn’t trust the help all<br />
that much and it gets him away from Mrs. Feeney who was<br />
born a living bitch and still is. But Clary I always liked. Come<br />
evening he dims the lights over the back booths with a remote<br />
switch and lets his regulars drink in peace. He was a pal <strong>of</strong> my<br />
dad’s in the old days and sort <strong>of</strong> inherited me.<br />
I remember, that was a Tuesday after Timmy died, a slow<br />
night, so Feeney leans over the bar—fat since forever with silver<br />
hair that never combed right and a worn-out face like every<br />
old mick who ever came through Ellis Island—and he asks me,<br />
“Ah, y’ look bad, Danny. Troubles?”<br />
“You wouldn’t believe.” My question was important but I<br />
kept it casual. “Charley Lenihan been in?”<br />
e<br />
Feeney took a napkin to a ring <strong>of</strong> wet on the mahogany<br />
bar. “Not since.” Which meant not since Timmy died. In our<br />
‘hood a lot <strong>of</strong> things don’t get spelled out. “Place smells better<br />
without him.”<br />
I finished my Bushmill’s and chased it with beer. “Amen.”<br />
“Here, have one for Timmy, rest his soul.” Feeney pours<br />
me a fresh Bush, but his expression is dead serious.<br />
“Someone’s going to remove Charley one <strong>of</strong> these days. Simple<br />
sanitation, people say.” And he holds my eyes with the clear<br />
meaning in his own: Who better than you? Then like an afterthought:<br />
“He’s hanging out at P.J. Clarke’s now.”<br />
“Who said?”<br />
“Little geek in a cheap suit. Comes in now and then. Don’t<br />
know his name.”<br />
I got the message. The job was mine to do, and from the<br />
looks I got from homeys, Feeney was speaking for everyone.<br />
Easy to say but a lot to think twice about at home later. I’ve<br />
been outside the law <strong>of</strong>ten as in but nothing like this. Could I<br />
put a gun to Charley Lenihan’s greasy head and do him? The<br />
Westies would take a contract on anyone, but those humps did<br />
messy work; I couldn’t afford them anyway. Do it myself, I’d<br />
pass the point <strong>of</strong> no return, and there was enough church left<br />
in me to know there’d be heavy dues. While I was mulling all<br />
this before bed, it happened again—Timmy’s voice clear as if<br />
he were in the room.<br />
Danny, help me!<br />
“I’ll try, honest,” I promised out loud. “Tell me how.”<br />
Carlos knows. He’ll find you.<br />
Whoever and whatever, I’m no hero. I wondered if I could<br />
handle it. “Gotta know one thing, little brother. Was it Charley<br />
with you at the warehouse?”<br />
Who else? A real stand up guy, Charley. He ratted out when he<br />
heard the cops and left me swingin’ in the wind.<br />
“How’d it go down?”<br />
Dark. I couldn’t see. Had an armload <strong>of</strong> DVDs, tripped up and<br />
went ass over tea kettle. First cop in is this rookie kid. Says to put my<br />
hands up, and all I’m holding is this stupid DVD. He thought I was<br />
pointing a gun. Timmy’s laugh slid down the scale, dry and bitter.