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CHAPTER 30. SURRENDER: THE EGO UPSIDE DOWN
beautiful. That expulsion was also beautiful. I had to search for a new college, but before I could
be admitted I somehow had to persuade the principal, because the whole city knew – there were
twenty colleges – the whole city was aware that I was continually being expelled from one college to
another.
I have been educated in many colleges. People ordinarily for one degree go to one college; for one
degree I have gone to a dozen colleges. For two or three months at the most they were able to
withstand me. So I went to the principal’s house, not to the college. I enquired about him from the
neighbors, what kind of man he was. They said, ”Very religious; every morning.... He is a follower of
the goddess Kali.” He himself was a very strong man, black – kali means black – very tall and very
fat. He never needed any microphone, there was no need; he could address ten thousand students
without any loudspeaker system.
So the whole neighborhood told me, ”Early in the morning for two hours, three hours, he is such a
nuisance because he just continues, ’Jai Kali! Jai Kali! Jai Kali!’ – and you know the man and his
voice! ”Jai Kali means victory to the mother goddess Kali. ”And he gets so agitated that he gets
louder and louder. First he starts by sitting, and then he stands up. And he almost looks like Kali
himself”
Kali is a very ugly goddess, a very ugly woman with four hands, with a necklace of human skulls.
With one hand she is holding a head, freshly cut off, blood dropping from it; in another hand, a
sword. And she is standing on her husband’s chest! – a real woman. The world needs such women.
So I enquired about everything, and then I went early in the morning at six o’clock and he was doing
his thing, and really he was hot! He had a small temple in his house. I simply went in and sat there
by the side. When he was just coming to the end of it I started, ”Jai Kali!”
He looked around and he said, ”Who are you?”
I said, ”Don’t disturb me,” and I started again: ”Jai Kali!”
He said, ”But this is strange. For the first time – and you are so young. Are you a devotee of Kali?”
I said, ”What do you think? Do you think you are the only devotee of Kali in this city?”
He said, ”I used to think that nobody was such a devotee as I am, but you certainly seem to be!”
I said, ”No, not compared to you. You are far ahead. You are almost a saint; I am just a beginner, an
amateur.”
He said, ”No, you are not an amateur! What do you do?” He wanted to talk and he pulled me along:
”Come with me, have breakfast.” So I had breakfast with him. He said, ”You are the only man who
has understood me – when you said, ’You are almost a saint....’ Nobody thinks me a saint, they think
that I am a monster. And these neighbors would kill me if they could manage, but knowing me they
are afraid, they are cowards. You are the only man in my whole life who has understood me. What
do you do?”
I said, ”I study in a college.”
From Ignorance to Innocence 455 Osho