Inscape 04 FINAL - Pasadena City College
Inscape 04 FINAL - Pasadena City College
Inscape 04 FINAL - Pasadena City College
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K AEL L AL ONDE<br />
Has the scar healed Daddy?<br />
Stupid question.<br />
Scars that big don’t go very far<br />
Will<br />
The first time under the knife<br />
Dr. Blood told you and mom that with chemo and<br />
radiation,<br />
you could buy up to 3 extra months,<br />
on top of the 3 he already gave you<br />
Dulled and depleted<br />
You left, denied of even half a year to live<br />
If you took his advice<br />
You lay in bed for days, I remember<br />
Not quite depressed<br />
Discouraged<br />
probably<br />
Disillusioned<br />
definitely<br />
Disappointed<br />
Of course, maybe even<br />
Disturbed<br />
But only a distraction did this distant form<br />
of death cause<br />
So you changed direction all together<br />
The pills, the appointments, the plastic,<br />
the poison they tried to pollute you with,<br />
we put in the past<br />
You choose love to revive life<br />
And it was five more years<br />
Until you had to go back under the knife<br />
This time you weren’t all I had to worry about<br />
lying in the hospital bed<br />
But mom sitting next to you holding her head<br />
in her hands<br />
Wishing I was there to share the fear<br />
because who would waste time<br />
while she waited,<br />
for the wait in the waiting room<br />
wringing her hands<br />
and biting the inside of her lip<br />
This time all I could do was cry to a phone<br />
devouring the flesh behind my lip too<br />
It had become only minutes now between<br />
lightning joints<br />
Sedation wasn’t enough to forget<br />
But just enough to suppress the logic that was<br />
setting in<br />
And let denial soothe the doubt<br />
It was only you daddy that knew it wasn’t through<br />
You told me you weren’t going anywhere soon<br />
and laughed<br />
Twenty-five more years you said<br />
And no more<br />
No more hospital beds<br />
You had been hiccuping for over a week without sleep<br />
They said it was from the pressure of the<br />
tumor on your brain stem<br />
Which meant you were near the end<br />
In the face of death you held your name high<br />
and it became apparent why<br />
You were born to the name will<br />
Now in a new country with a new scar you live<br />
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