the Equinox - The Hermetic Library

September
29th. 12.0 m.n.
164
11.15-11.41
a.m. a.m.
THE EQUINOX
Dhâranâ on Ajna and “Aum Tat Sat Aum” thirty-one
minutes. At one time Ajna seemed enormously, perhaps
infinitely, elongated.
Mantra “Aum Tat Sat Aum” with usual throbbing.
Took 210 drops of Laudanum as an experiment under
Mâitrânanda’s guidance. (Absolutely no mental result, and
hardly any physical result. I must be most resistant to this
drug, which I had never previously taken).
30th. Recovering from the Laudanum.
10.5 a.m. Prânâyâma and Dhâranâ hopeless.*
October. Another month of this great work commences, and though
the toil has not been wasted the reward indeed seems still
far off.
On the first of the month P. writes:—
“Blessed be thou, O Bhâvâni, O Isis my Sister, my Bride, my Mother! Blessed
be Thou, O Shiva, O Amoun, Concealed of the Concealed. By Thy most secret
and Holy Name of Apophis be Thou blessed, Lucifer, Star of the Dawn, Satan-
Jeheshua, Light of the World! Blessed be Thou, Buddha, Osiris, by whatever
Name I call Thee Thou art nameless to Eternity.
“Blessed by Thou, O Day, that Thou hast risen in the Night of Time; First
Dawn in the Chaos of poor P.’s poor mind! Accursed be Thou, Jehovah, Brahma,
unto the Æons of Æons: thou who didst create Darkness and not Light! Mâra,
vile Mask of Matter!
“Arise, O Shiva, and destroy! That in destruction these at last be blest.”
1st. 5.30 p.m.
9.30 p.m.
Prânâyâma.
Mantra seventeen minutes. Noise of glass being rubbed
persistent.
From now I decide to work more seriously, and follow out
the following programme:
Mantra “Aum Tat Sat Aum.”
Dhâranâ on Ajna Chakkra.
Read Bhagavad-Gita.
Vegetarian diet.
Normal amount of sleep.
* Probably at this time a period of “dryness” supervened.