Cypress Branches Literary Journal - Lamar State College-Orange
Cypress Branches Literary Journal - Lamar State College-Orange
Cypress Branches Literary Journal - Lamar State College-Orange
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But<br />
tonight, right now, he is not lost but here, twisted across his tousled covers,<br />
a battered but still silvery plasticized cap pistol next to his smooth small hand,<br />
his beautiful face, delicate, startling, already the uneven but universally recognizable shape of<br />
resignation taking form beneath his translucent eyelids and the<br />
downturned corner of his mobile, slightly-parted, ever-silent lips,<br />
his uniqueness his curse and unspeakable grace.<br />
His bare chest still moves the Spiderman sheets,<br />
and I catch at my own bare chest, already cursing my<br />
failure to protect this shattered lamp, this hymn of love, my<br />
beautiful broken boy who yet lies here in oblivious safe sleep;<br />
only when I stretch out my bloodless hand to<br />
touch his sweat-damp hair can I breathe<br />
once, tearing one huge and ragged sob then afloat again, the despair<br />
almost manageable, hearing the words of the women again,<br />
they always run,<br />
thinking<br />
maybe . . . but not tonight.<br />
Not tonight.<br />
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