Chapter One - Richard Lewis
Chapter One - Richard Lewis Chapter One - Richard Lewis
The elders of the village, including A. A. Mantera and Dharma, took seats at the head table, near the gurgling water fall. A.A. Gdé Raka sat by his father. There was no reason that Nol could see for Raka to so arrogantly assume such a seat of honor. Why, people would start talking how Raka wanted to shove his own father out the picture and take over the family empire. High overhead, florescent lights buzzed, casting Nol's shadow before and behind and to the side, as if three of the four guardian spirits that had been born with him were made visible. If this was so, then where was the fourth? It was a silly notion, but nonetheless Nol felt unsettled and vulnerable. Several men scurried in late, taking the last of the open chairs. Beyond the open windows, people had gathered in the night shadows, figures in the dark. Mantera rose, his cheekbones shiny triangles of thin flesh. "Now that the chickens are all down from the trees, we can start," he said. Mantera had five shadows around him, Nol noticed. As if he had stolen one of Nol's. "We have among us at this table honorable men who speak wisely," Mantera began, "but I hope you will kindly listen to an old man like me." With formal courtesy, he thanked the VIPs by name for being present. He also acknowledged the sole woman at the head table, her eyes big behind thick glasses, mentioning her as Dr. Professor of Archeology at Bali University and board member of the Historical Museum. "This is an open meeting but it is off the record," Mantera said. He lifted his gaze and addressed the lurkers beyond the windows. "This includes those of you who do not wish to join us openly." Before Mantera could continue, there was a heavy slap-slap of sandals in the hall, and everyone at the tables turned to look. A Western woman was carrying a stool from the kitchen, which she placed off the table's corner nearest Nol. Her frizzy hair looked as if a child had drawn it around her head with an orange crayon. She sat down, dipping her head in apology for the interruption, and folded her hands in her lap. The interrupted moment closed in over itself like water, and Mantera continued. "As we all know," he said, "this morning, twelve skeletons were discovered at a construction site. This is not an archeological find. Am this correct, Dr. Professor?" The archeologist adjusted her glasses on her nose and agreed that it was not an archeological find. She said that for accuracy's sake, twelve skulls had been found but she had identified at least thirteen skeletal remains. She added that it was common to find incomplete remains at mass burial sites Mantera smoothly asked the Chief of Police, "And the police are not processing this as a murder?" "Not at this time," the Chief said, a nice political hedge against the uncertain post- Soeharto future. From beyond a window a man said, with a belligerent tone, "Where are the remains now?" Mantera was unruffled. "For those of you who wish to speak, please do join us here in the light so we can know who you are. There is room enough to stand." Nol had to admire this, the way Mantera so politely gave warning. 42
"What was found is in safe keeping for the time being," the police chief said. How long a time he did not say, nor mention the bones' possible fate, another fine equivocation that left room to maneuver. Mantera acknowledged this with a dip of his head before continuing his speech, his tone rising not too high nor dipping too low, a lulling rhythm to his words, defining in circles those bones and those shattered skulls by what they were not, and not by what they actually were. He dipped into village history and spoke of its founders and of its heroes, including those who stabbed themselves with their keris blades instead of surrendering to the invading Dutch army. Mantera spoke of those heroes as the heroes of all who were present, and there rose in Nol's breast a sense of pride, of common bond between him and those heroes of old, including one of his ancestors, a bond that neatly skipped over the events of 1965. "Each of our fates is as varied as life itself," Mantera said, "and for those of us who feel we have in the past lost family members, let us remember our heroes, let us be one with them." And this then was reburying of the bones, in the remembrance of the heroes let the bones be forgotten. Nol felt himself nodding with the others, ready to give his assent. The white woman rose her feet and said, in fluent Indonesian, "But surely the bones should be identified. So that some of those who feel they have lost loved ones will know what has happened to them? That is all, simply to know. There is so much peace in finally knowing." Mantera smiled, a thin stretching of lips. "Excuse me, madam," he said in English, "but may we know who you are?" "My name is Tina," she replied, still speaking Indonesian. "Forgive my bluntness, but I believe what you are really wondering is what right do I have to speak here. I speak as a sister to a girl who disappeared when she was twelve. I know what it means to not know what has happened to a loved one." "I am sorry for your misfortune," Mantera said, "but such misfortunes as fall our village are ours to take care of. Thank you—" "There is a saying in English," this Tina woman said quickly. "About the elephant in the room that everybody is ignoring. And there's an elephant in this room. The massacres of 1965. One of the worst in modern times. Over fifty thousand Balinese killed. We all know this. I am not speaking here of courts or tribunals. I am only speaking of the simple right to know. To know who these victims were. Grief can never be healed, but we can give their families some peace." Nol found himself nodding, but Dharma cut a sharp glare at him that stilled his head. "Arrogant American," somebody else muttered. But others beyond the window were accepting the interloper's words with a louder buzz of appreciation. From his seat at the end of the head table, Dharma slowly stood. It wasn't an ordinary standing, but a dramatic actor's majestic arising with the arms spread just so, the back imperiously straight, the serious mien, the stalwart bald head crowned with a strip of white hair. "Honored guest, you speak of 1965. Forgive me, but I do not think you were born then, you are too young, your skin too fine and untroubled. But I was a young man during 43
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"What was found is in safe keeping for the time being," the police chief said. How<br />
long a time he did not say, nor mention the bones' possible fate, another fine equivocation<br />
that left room to maneuver.<br />
Mantera acknowledged this with a dip of his head before continuing his speech,<br />
his tone rising not too high nor dipping too low, a lulling rhythm to his words, defining in<br />
circles those bones and those shattered skulls by what they were not, and not by what<br />
they actually were. He dipped into village history and spoke of its founders and of its<br />
heroes, including those who stabbed themselves with their keris blades instead of<br />
surrendering to the invading Dutch army. Mantera spoke of those heroes as the heroes of<br />
all who were present, and there rose in Nol's breast a sense of pride, of common bond<br />
between him and those heroes of old, including one of his ancestors, a bond that neatly<br />
skipped over the events of 1965.<br />
"Each of our fates is as varied as life itself," Mantera said, "and for those of us<br />
who feel we have in the past lost family members, let us remember our heroes, let us be<br />
one with them."<br />
And this then was reburying of the bones, in the remembrance of the heroes let<br />
the bones be forgotten. Nol felt himself nodding with the others, ready to give his assent.<br />
The white woman rose her feet and said, in fluent Indonesian, "But surely the<br />
bones should be identified. So that some of those who feel they have lost loved ones will<br />
know what has happened to them? That is all, simply to know. There is so much peace in<br />
finally knowing."<br />
Mantera smiled, a thin stretching of lips. "Excuse me, madam," he said in<br />
English, "but may we know who you are?"<br />
"My name is Tina," she replied, still speaking Indonesian. "Forgive my bluntness,<br />
but I believe what you are really wondering is what right do I have to speak here. I speak<br />
as a sister to a girl who disappeared when she was twelve. I know what it means to not<br />
know what has happened to a loved one."<br />
"I am sorry for your misfortune," Mantera said, "but such misfortunes as fall our<br />
village are ours to take care of. Thank you—"<br />
"There is a saying in English," this Tina woman said quickly. "About the<br />
elephant in the room that everybody is ignoring. And there's an elephant in this room.<br />
The massacres of 1965. <strong>One</strong> of the worst in modern times. Over fifty thousand Balinese<br />
killed. We all know this. I am not speaking here of courts or tribunals. I am only speaking<br />
of the simple right to know. To know who these victims were. Grief can never be healed,<br />
but we can give their families some peace."<br />
Nol found himself nodding, but Dharma cut a sharp glare at him that stilled his<br />
head.<br />
"Arrogant American," somebody else muttered.<br />
But others beyond the window were accepting the interloper's words with a louder<br />
buzz of appreciation.<br />
From his seat at the end of the head table, Dharma slowly stood. It wasn't an<br />
ordinary standing, but a dramatic actor's majestic arising with the arms spread just so, the<br />
back imperiously straight, the serious mien, the stalwart bald head crowned with a strip of<br />
white hair.<br />
"Honored guest, you speak of 1965. Forgive me, but I do not think you were born<br />
then, you are too young, your skin too fine and untroubled. But I was a young man during<br />
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