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The Magazine of <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> High School Writing<br />

The Magazine of <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> High School Writing<br />

windScript<br />

windScript is a publication of the<br />

<strong>Volume</strong> <strong>24</strong> <strong>2007</strong>/08<br />

Contributors<br />

Jonathan Alexson<br />

Ceara Caton<br />

Katherine Sthamann<br />

Sarah Neufeld<br />

Blaire Stevenson<br />

Amanda Johnson<br />

Arden Angley<br />

Will Gordon<br />

Rebecca Tera<br />

Ben Whittaker<br />

Jocelyn Lukan<br />

Charlie Peters<br />

Renee Dumont<br />

Haley Muench<br />

Amanda Ahner<br />

Victoria Pawliw<br />

Stephanie Clarkson<br />

Annette Nedilenka<br />

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The Magazine of <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> High School Writing<br />

Foreword – 1<br />

Prose Editor’s Foreword – 2<br />

Poetry Editor’s Foreword – 3<br />

Artist Statement – 4<br />

History 6-2, 6-1 – 5<br />

Jonathan Alexson<br />

Waiting for My Perfect Picture<br />

– 6<br />

Ceara Caton<br />

Imagination – 7<br />

Katherine Sthamann<br />

Third World Speaks – 8<br />

It Would Be Easy<br />

Sarah Neufeld<br />

Hair – 9<br />

Blaire Stevenson<br />

Armarillo – 10<br />

Amanda Johnson<br />

The Red Dress – 11<br />

Arden Angley<br />

The Oracle’s Guard – 12<br />

Will Gordon<br />

Bombs Chase me to My Grave<br />

– 14<br />

Rebecca Thera<br />

iPod Generation – 15<br />

Ben Whittaker<br />

The Age of Computers – 16<br />

Sarah Neufeld<br />

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Light Bulb Moments – 18<br />

Victoria Bridge Blues – 18<br />

Currie-Hyland Prize<br />

Feline Simplicity – 19<br />

white is not black – 19<br />

i am – 20<br />

Jocelyn Lukan<br />

Dear Santa – 21<br />

Katherine Sthamann<br />

The Astronomy of<br />

Friends and Strangers – 22<br />

Charlie Peters<br />

Relationships – 22<br />

Renee Dumont<br />

Nightmare – 23<br />

Ceara Caton<br />

Widower – 25<br />

Your woman soft and small – 25<br />

Jerrett Enns Award for Poetry<br />

Arden Angley<br />

The Chinese Restaurant – 26<br />

Hayley Muench<br />

Toothflesh – 27<br />

Jerrett Enns Award for Prose<br />

Bright Lights – 28<br />

Amanda Ahner<br />

Daughter to Mother – 29<br />

Victoria Pawliw<br />

The Last Tea Party – 30<br />

Sarah Neufeld<br />

contents<br />

A Reaction to my Stupid<br />

Action – 32<br />

Stephanie Clarkson<br />

Kill the Songbird that<br />

Does Not Sing – 33<br />

Sarah Neufeld<br />

Painter – 34<br />

Arden Angley<br />

Water Flirting – 35<br />

Hayley Muench<br />

My Blunt Obituary – 36<br />

Annette Nedilenka<br />

Jerrett Enns Award for<br />

Prose<br />

Writer Biographies – 37<br />

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The Magazine of <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> High School Writing<br />

Foreword to windScript<br />

Welcome to windScript, the <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> Writers <strong>Guild</strong>’s e-zine of high school writing.<br />

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foreword<br />

<strong>Volume</strong> Twenty-four of windScript is published on-line at http://www.skwriter.com. We hope you enjoy reading<br />

the remarkable poetry and stories from the high school students whose work was selected.<br />

Many thanks to Jennifer Still, the poetry editor, and to Adrienne Gruber for editing the fiction and non-fiction.<br />

Special appreciation to artist Chad Coombs for providing some of his exciting work to accompany this issue.<br />

Thanks to each and every student who sent in their work, and to <strong>Saskatchewan</strong>’s teachers and librarians who<br />

encourage student writing.<br />

For more information, please contact:<br />

Beth McLean<br />

Education & Publications Officer<br />

windscript@sasktel.net<br />

Phone: (306) 791-7746<br />

<strong>2007</strong> Award Winners<br />

Amanda Ahner Arden Angley Jocelyn Lukan<br />

Annette Nedilenka<br />

The Jerrett Enns Awards are awards of excellence named in honour of Victor Jerrett Enns, Executive Director<br />

of the <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> Writers <strong>Guild</strong> from 1982 to 1988. It was Victor who first presented the idea of<br />

windScript to the Board of the <strong>Guild</strong> in 1983. His enthusiasm and determination kept the magazine alive in its<br />

first two years until permanent funding could be found.<br />

The Currie-Hyland Prize was established as a tribute to Robert Currie and Gary Hyland in recognition of their<br />

literary excellence, commitment, and generosity to students and fellow writers. The prize is awarded for excellence<br />

in poetry to a high school writer living outside Regina or Saskatoon.


The Magazine of <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> High School Writing prose<br />

Prose Editor’s Foreword to windScript<br />

It’s been an exciting process, acting as Prose Editor for<br />

this issue of windScript. Reading over all the pieces pulled<br />

me right back to my own experiences submitting to high<br />

school literary journals. If there’s one thing that hasn’t<br />

changed for me, it’s the anticipation I feel sending work<br />

out to magazines and the absolute thrill I continue to get<br />

when I receive an acceptance letter.<br />

I applaud all the writers who submitted their prose, as<br />

submitting is always a risk. You’re risking, not just your<br />

work, but a part of your identity. The payoffs are sometimes<br />

few and far between, but they’re so satisfying that<br />

we continue to take that risk.<br />

What amazed and excited me the most while reading<br />

these submissions was the passion and the commitment<br />

to the process these writers have taken. After I chose<br />

the accepted pieces, I had several email exchanges with<br />

many of the writers, sending drafts back and forth. These<br />

writers not only love to write, they take such pride in the<br />

rewriting and editing process, and are not afraid to experiment<br />

with their work to create stories that are fresh<br />

and potent. For me, these pieces are important because<br />

they don’t shy away from intense emotional experience<br />

and complex language. They can reach the reader on a<br />

variety of levels.<br />

I didn’t have a specific idea of what pieces I was looking<br />

to accept when I began reading the submissions. This<br />

process, for me, was more about feeling out the work,<br />

seeing what sparks curiosity in me, what pulls me into a<br />

fresh world and allows me to disengage from day-to-day<br />

reality, or (even better) makes the everyday a complex<br />

and unique experience. Much of the work I chose is not<br />

just well crafted, but walks the careful line between image<br />

and narration, allowing the reader to both hear and<br />

feel that specific world being created. There’s tension in<br />

these pieces, often raw and unyielding, and a touch of the<br />

absurd. There’s beautiful language, lines that made me feel<br />

like I was getting punched in the stomach. What amazes<br />

me about the work in this issue is the attention to detail<br />

and voice. Each piece, no matter what the subject matter<br />

or content, was true to its voice.<br />

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This was a major factor in my decision to award both<br />

Annette Nedilenka, author of My Blunt Obituary, and<br />

Amanda Ahner, author of Toothflesh, the Jerrett Enns<br />

Award for Prose for this issue. Though both pieces<br />

are extremely different, both have maturity in voice<br />

and craft. My Blunt Obituary reached me immediately<br />

with its wit and honesty. To use humour successfully<br />

in prose is an incredible accomplishment, as it opens<br />

the reader up, breaks down barriers, and creates a<br />

connection between the reader and the writer. I was<br />

equally impressed with Toothflesh, and while it isn’t<br />

in traditional prose form, it is a skilled cross-genre<br />

piece, combining the long lines of prose with intense<br />

poetic images. In the end, I couldn’t decide which<br />

piece was more deserving of this award, and so we<br />

have a tie. Congratulations to Annette and Amanda!<br />

Thank you to everyone who submitted to this year’s<br />

issue of windScript. It was a pleasure to read your<br />

work and I hope you continue to share and create<br />

your stories.<br />

Prose Editor<br />

Adrienne Gruber<br />

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Adrienne Gruber


The Magazine of <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> High School Writing poetry<br />

17 for life: A foreword by Jennifer Still<br />

Poetry is about possibilities, about saying what normally<br />

eludes words, definition. It’s about pinning down that<br />

which is fleeting, bursting open the minutiae into myriad<br />

worlds. If this was 17 years earlier, I would be sitting down<br />

at my PC 286 (floppy-disk drive) in my basement bedroom,<br />

scented candles lit and flickering, the green DOS cursor<br />

(yes, DOS!) pulsing the 14” monitor, blinkblinkblink. I’d<br />

be writing about my recent break-up, my fight with my<br />

parents, the desperate poverty of the world. I would be<br />

holding close the words of my high school teacher (keep<br />

writing, you have talent) and listening to a voice that is<br />

simultaneously the loudest and quietest part of myself, the<br />

most genuine and the most hidden.<br />

A friend recently told me how she is eternally 17. I agree<br />

with her. There is a fearless, hopeful, ambitious part of ourselves<br />

that remains this youthful being filled with potential.<br />

It is that time when we are just beginning to figure out<br />

who we are, or, as Ceara Caton so aptly writes, when we<br />

are “waiting for (our) perfect picture.” And despite the<br />

fact I needed Wikipedia to enlighten me on the meanings<br />

of such terms as “emo hair” (with thanks to Ben Whittaker,<br />

and for those who are no longer 17, this is a style<br />

that is “emotional, sensitive, shy, introverted or angsty”),<br />

in reading the submissions I was instantly 17 again, connecting<br />

in a very present way to themes of loss, identity,<br />

suicide, poverty, bullying, relationships, drug abuse, family.<br />

And as I sunk into the work and worlds that connected so<br />

deeply with my youth and early risks as a writer, I realized<br />

it is not so much an age that places these young voices as<br />

it is an immediacy, an experience, a presence that is less<br />

reflection and intention as it is desire and action. As serious<br />

and grim as much of the content is, the poems remain<br />

rich with life, with hope, with the experienced voices of<br />

those deeply in the presence of this particular moment.<br />

It is these first wadings into language that will feed the<br />

work, in some form, for the rest of their lives. It was an<br />

absolute thrill to read this work and to engage in discussion<br />

with these writers who not only have the talent, but<br />

the dedication, the curiousity, and the bravery to listen to<br />

their voices and address their deepest concerns through<br />

words. It is such a gift to have a venue for these original,<br />

stunningly aware and imaginitive voices. Thank you to the<br />

<strong>Saskatchewan</strong> Writers <strong>Guild</strong> for providing the stage that is<br />

windScript, an immensely important publication.<br />

A special congratulations must go to Arden Angley,<br />

winner of the Jerrett Enns Award for Poetry, and Jocelyn<br />

Lukan, winner of the Currie-Hyland Prize. Arden’s<br />

poem “Your woman, soft and small” immediately struck<br />

me for its incredible imagination and arresting imagery.<br />

Arden’s navigation through landscapes such as “She<br />

paddled her rowboat in the gaps of your gums, waved<br />

to your childhood before it was swallowed” instantly<br />

broke language into new possibilities for me. Arden’s<br />

intuitive approach to writing, combined with her deft<br />

sense of language, narrative, and dialogue is very much<br />

at work in the poems published here. And Jocelyn<br />

Lukan’s suite of poetry has the efficiency and efficacy<br />

so desired in poetry. From the subtle suggested metaphor<br />

of “smoke billow ascends up / smoothstretched /<br />

<strong>Saskatchewan</strong> skies // I sprinkle your ashes / upon taut<br />

forehead flesh” to the sharp and gut-punching directness<br />

of “naïve candy virgin / waiting / waiting / waiting<br />

to be”, Jocelyn transposes the ephemeral with the particular,<br />

the particular with the ephemeral in a language<br />

that is as resonant as it is focused, as reaching as it is<br />

grounded.<br />

And finally, congratulations to everyone who took the<br />

risk of putting their concerns, their observations, their<br />

passions into words. The stack of poetry I received<br />

was enormous. Hundreds of poems were whittled into<br />

various piles and various piles into yet smaller piles<br />

that became, eventually, a handful of poems. The subjectivity<br />

involved in selection is inevitable. I read for<br />

surprise, for music, for originality. I looked for an image<br />

that challenged me, a subject that evoked, a music that<br />

lifted. So thank you all for some fine reading this fall.<br />

It was no small job to make the final selections. The<br />

work published here, though varied in tone and content,<br />

shares a common attempt to say the unsayable,<br />

to place the world, if only momentarily, into a tangible,<br />

clarified state. On behalf of windScript and all the readers,<br />

for your words, I thank you.<br />

Poetry Editor<br />

Jennifer Still<br />

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Jennifer Still


The Magazine of <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> High School Writing<br />

Biography/Artist Statement: Chad Coombs<br />

I was born in 1982. I live in a small city in the middle<br />

of Canada. Nothing happens here at all, no fashion, no<br />

advertising campaigns of anything good, just all mediocre<br />

bland and old thinking. Every company and person<br />

in business is too worried about offending the next, so<br />

chances are hardly ever taken. So this all being said, it’s<br />

really hard for me to do anything but the images I create<br />

in my head. These images are with my friends and such<br />

in my bedroom studio I’ve created in my rental place. My<br />

bed is in my living room area. I use old studio lights from<br />

the 40’s, I think. The only way of lessening the power<br />

wattage is by taping transparent material over the front.<br />

Model lamps were removed to prevent fires from starting,<br />

and I’ll primarily use flickr for my photo hosting and<br />

ranting, which I do ALOT. I am very opinionated, but also<br />

firmly believe my opinion is not right, or wrong, but only<br />

an opinion, much like everyone else’s. I live for creating<br />

arguments and opening discussions, and I love debating<br />

controversial topics. Many of my images ask questions<br />

and give answers, and both can be interpreted in almost<br />

opposite ways if you look at them hard enough. This past<br />

summer of <strong>2007</strong>, I traveled to New York where I met<br />

much of David Lachapelles’ studio and gallery staff. I met<br />

and photographed Amanda Lepore, all due to Paul (the<br />

studio manager) seeing my Milk Maidens tribute image of<br />

Lachapelles’ original up on flickr. After a few emails, and<br />

an invite to New York, I hung out for two weeks snapping<br />

photos and networking. I hope to go back soon. Nothing<br />

else really matters except that I have opportunity to<br />

create my images and then reveal them, and hopefully to<br />

get constructive criticism to further my next attempt.<br />

My next image is only as good as the next shot I take,<br />

so it better be good, is what I tell myself before I plan<br />

to execute my ideas. Primarily I live for commercial and<br />

fashion based shooting; sets, sets and more sets. I love<br />

building sets with things hanging from the ceilings and so<br />

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on. I can use Photoshop very well, but always try to do<br />

things in real life instead, by building instead of cloning.<br />

I dream of being the next Richard Avedone or creating<br />

masterpieces like David Lachapelle, but in the end,<br />

being only Chad Coombs. My inspirations are evident<br />

in my work, but as I grow and learn, more of me will<br />

be revealed and hopefully create some things new and<br />

never seen. Time will tell and my watch is ticking. To<br />

leave a small Canadian city bedroom studio and shoot<br />

on the shot would be a dream come true and one of<br />

the many steps I plan to take with my camera in hand.<br />

No matter what, this is just the beginning, the shot or<br />

no shot. Check out www.flickr.com/photos/unscene/<br />

click, if you really feel brave.<br />

Chad Coombs<br />

Artist<br />

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Chad Coombs


The Magazine of <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> High School Writing<br />

Jonathan Alexson<br />

History 6–2, 6–1<br />

Let’s talk about what justifies Real Native!<br />

Being a Six-Two is being Meti-Kid!<br />

Six-One are Highbreds. So Creative,<br />

Con-together or First Nations won’t live.<br />

Live to see another Millennium,<br />

Or ten generations later. Due to pre-cum,<br />

Confirm who you are marrying is the right one.<br />

Who is erasing our History?<br />

Like who killed hip-hop, this is History!<br />

When we gone! You all be missing Cree,<br />

But all influenced, when reading thee.<br />

Two Six-Twos are officially one.<br />

Offspring now—Six-one.<br />

Two Six-Ones—First Nation’s newborn sons.<br />

Let the government pay millions.<br />

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The Magazine of <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> High School Writing<br />

Ceara Caton<br />

Waiting for My Perfect Picture<br />

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This is the beginning of a beautiful idea, maybe, I really couldn’t tell.<br />

If one day you wake up and you feel like something inside of you has changed, will you draw a<br />

different picture? Feeling like a totally different person must affect your art.<br />

Or maybe only what’s on the outside of your carefully crafted environment. If I was lying on a<br />

train trestle, basking in the sun, would I perceive my talents differently? Especially if I was surrounded<br />

by birds, trees, water, dragonflies…or sun. I love the sun.<br />

Lately, I don’t feel like I can draw, paint or create. I wonder if I have raised standards or if my<br />

imagination is failing. Could there be such thing as a lack of sun? Once, I told a friend I was<br />

stuck in a perpetual snow bank called <strong>Saskatchewan</strong>. No one would ever believe me. He didn’t.<br />

Maybe there’s nothing to paint. Maybe I left it all at home, with my ocean. Maybe beside my collection<br />

of possessions on the beach: my ocean, my pointless love life, my drug habit, my phantom…<br />

is my picture. Do I, in reality, sit on my snow bank, pining for something that I was just<br />

stupid enough to leave behind?<br />

No, my phantom stole it.<br />

There really is no point focusing on a gap in a process, only on filling that empty space. Trying to<br />

not so eloquently describe a phantom, the one I really want. The stimulation that would make<br />

my picture is only wallowing in what I can’t obtain. The insane…love…of being sure you don’t<br />

know what you’re doing and yet knowing you must. That’s my phantom.<br />

Waiting for my perfect picture.<br />

If I was writing this in a notebook, I would be confident no one would ever read it. Would the<br />

pleasure of being completely secretive help me tell my story? Do I draw for others or for myself?<br />

I only create what I don’t understand, yet I don’t understand why I create for you. I don’t<br />

trust your judgment, I don’t believe you would never laugh, but I guess I need to know.<br />

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The Magazine of <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> High School Writing<br />

Katherine Sthamann<br />

Imagination<br />

I think the term “I want to kill myself” is false and much overused. In my short life experience<br />

I’ve found that human beings generally will make their best interest priority over anyone else’s,<br />

therefore people don’t really want to kill themselves. Everyone loves themselves too damn much,<br />

nature made it that way. No, what they want to kill is the feeling inside of them. Feeling useless<br />

and ugly. The feeling when you look at yourself and say, “You suck.” And believe it. The feeling<br />

inside of you, that’s what you want to kill, not yourself. That’s kind of me, that’s not entirely truthful.<br />

They all ask, “How are your brothers?” To which I reply, “Good.” Long and strenuous silence,<br />

asker looking for more detail, askee wanting to flee, she would rather be taking a nap. “Really<br />

good.” End conversation. It’s in my imagination where they ask me how I am doing. And in my<br />

imagination I reply, “Fuck.” It feels really good. A lot of things in your imagination can feel really<br />

good. Like sometimes, in like, Bio or whatever, the teacher will be all like, “Flagella and conjugation<br />

and Chlorophyta.” And I’ll be all like “Kkkllaschtttbvw.” When I get to the Kkkllaschtttbvw stage is<br />

when my imagination comes in real handy. It’s right then when suddenly my breasts start to grow.<br />

Well, actually, they’re finished growing. And you would never believe it, but to a really nice size as<br />

well. It seems everything is growing. My hair is long, like down to my butt (my nice butt). It smells<br />

very appealing, like raspberries. My hair that is, not my butt. And this is all happening right there in<br />

period 2! So there I am, nice boobs, nice ass, nice hair, and it’s like where did the time go, and what<br />

were you talking about? And why do I care? Because at that moment the feeling inside, the “You<br />

suck” feeling, has officially been slaughtered, at least for that moment. So here I am, and as I said<br />

before I kind of feel like Fuck right now. And I’m all like, “I want to kill myself.” And then myself<br />

replies, “No you don’t, you want to kill the feeling inside of you, you invented that theory, stupid.”<br />

And then I think, “Oh ya, I am stupid.” And I’m trying so hard to write a postcard story while<br />

myself is telling me how stupid I am at the same time, and then my imagination pulls through right<br />

when I need it the most. Because right at the moment I start to threaten to poke my own eyeballs<br />

out if I don’t finish my homework, Luka Kovac is like, “Will you be my bride?” Luka Kovac, by<br />

the way, is the Russian doctor from ER aka the best looking male specimen the world of medicine<br />

has ever seen. So I’m sorry that this story has a lack of plot and deep meanings. But like, hello!<br />

Creative writing, or running my fingers through hot Russian facial stubble? It’s called imagination,<br />

bitches, invest in one.<br />

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The Magazine of <strong>Saskatchewan</strong> High School Writing<br />

Sarah Neufeld<br />

Third World Speaks<br />

Talk about hunger<br />

like you’ve felt it<br />

gnawing your gut,<br />

stripping meat from bones,<br />

growing fat off flesh<br />

sitting bloated in belly.<br />

Yes, talk about hunger.<br />

Talk about thirst<br />

as if you’ve been there<br />

with thirst evaporating your essence,<br />

cracking lips like parched pond,<br />

suffocating with saliva,<br />

watching as eyes glaze over.<br />

Yes, talk about thirst.<br />

Talk about sickness<br />

like you know it,<br />

infection spreading inside out,<br />

decaying bones like rotten wood,<br />

sapping strength,<br />

dragging to death.<br />

Yes, talk about sickness.<br />

Talk about poverty<br />

as if you’ve lived it,<br />

a hunger screaming in stomach,<br />

a thirst wailing in dry eyes,<br />

a sickness exhausting the soul,<br />

the cold reality of truth.<br />

Yes, talk about poverty.<br />

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It Would Be Easy<br />

this chasm stretches far, a giant laceration in the<br />

earth’s skin, a deep wound. these years haven’t<br />

healed it, it’s a lie. time doesn’t cure. look now, the<br />

black blood flows cutting a deeper injury, it’s infecting.<br />

water’s running fast, racing to the unknown.<br />

i would disintegrate with reality. dashed against<br />

jagged skeletons of cannon walls, my bones would<br />

break, spray red. in confusing eddies i would be<br />

ground to dust, washed away as silt. it would be<br />

easy.<br />

right now i stare at death, with frigid gravel digging<br />

into my soles; it embeds itself into my flesh. my toes<br />

curl over the lip, chilled breeze licks them, moist air<br />

is having a taste of me. “here” is one step before extinction.<br />

how far have they pushed me? i remember<br />

when they asked, DOES IT HURT? of course. HERE?<br />

THERE? yes, see, wounds still fresh: my ears still<br />

ringing, my brain still reeling, my skin still raw, my<br />

eyes still swollen, my nose still broken, my mouth<br />

still full of blood. OF COURSE NOT YOU’RE LIKE<br />

A ROCK YOU DON’T FEEL ANYTHING. that’s<br />

right, don’t look, don’t see what you’ve done to me.<br />

HA HA HA HA HA. words like punches. HA HA<br />

HA HA HA. it’s just a joke between- YOU’RE SO<br />

LAME, YOU SHOULD JUST DIE! –friends. HA HA<br />

HA HA HA. my soul a corpse. my heart a carcass.<br />

jeering, leering, you pushed me here. i stare into the<br />

abyss. water hypnotizes me, whispering in my ear,<br />

swelling an invitation.<br />

i am a statue or tree, your words pushing and pulling.<br />

it would be easy to let you win, i know this. i<br />

step back, grit crunching beneath my feet. i turn<br />

around.<br />

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Blaire Stevenson<br />

Hair<br />

His head is shaped like a mutant almond. That is if he didn’t have any hair. He’s<br />

grown a brown frizzy-curly bush overtop of his once delicate baby pink scalp.<br />

It has now become untamed and has taken its own course against the rushes<br />

and bustle of society. He’s hunched over on the sidewalk with his head between<br />

his knees playing with the dust in the curb. The cars, the people, the stray dogs<br />

all hurriedly pass him by with their busy lives leaving only their lingering scent<br />

and the interruption of wind they cause, which momentarily sucks in the man’s<br />

hair towards their passing shadows, making a brief disturbance inside, then the<br />

release. But he remains in solitude making pictures with the dust.<br />

It’s amazing, the things to be found in this chaotic entanglement of single hair<br />

strands. From this view, thickets wrap up swallowing the trunks of magnificent<br />

trees. Vines multiply and attach the trees together forming a shield that conceals<br />

the jungle’s secrets. What do you hide in there, old man? What information buries<br />

itself in that mess above your head that is so precarious that you conceal<br />

yourself from the rest of the world and choose to suffer alone…<br />

The barrier of trees creates a shelter for the homely vegetation and wildlife hidden<br />

beneath. The vines wrap down to the swamps of molded foliage and a steady<br />

gray haze. It’s humid down there. The water that drips down the trees becomes<br />

trapped in the undergrowth. Fungus and mold thrive on the dreary bark and<br />

make up for most of the surface of this jungle. Leeches suck the blood from your<br />

once delicate baby pink scalp and slugs feed on the follicles of your skull. Snakes<br />

intertwine and coil around your ears whispering threats of your innocence.<br />

Are you frightened, old man?


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Amanda Johnson<br />

Armarillo<br />

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Fuzz cackles,<br />

crackles<br />

on a tiny silver box.<br />

Music pounds<br />

and bumps<br />

from a black stereo.<br />

Virgin of Guadalupe<br />

gets all the blame<br />

while innocent minds are brainwashed<br />

and Cola takes over<br />

an entire nation.<br />

Values and morals<br />

are nothing to them.<br />

The poorest of the poor<br />

live in cardboard boxes<br />

with small televisions<br />

crackling across the country.<br />

(Note: Armarillo is the Spanish word for the color<br />

yellow.)<br />

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Arden Angley<br />

The Red Dress<br />

I wore my red dress. Pulled it over my back, the spiders playing my piano key<br />

bones. Took the dye from my dress and washed it over the sky. The moon untainted<br />

beamed above our bloodied art. We painted this town red. We watched<br />

the screen at the public library. You were smiling like a three-year-old child. Relief<br />

caught in your lungs. Ten thousand spiders ran the blood through my veins. You<br />

wondered what the racket was. Rested my right hand beside your white left one.<br />

You have such beautiful wrists. My mouth infested with spiders tapping on tiny little<br />

typewriters. I felt one fighting along side my tongue to push a letter through my<br />

lips. Swallowed hard, crushed its spindly legs with the muscles in my throat. There<br />

was still more pattering along in my heart and head. They told me about the signals,<br />

reassured me with the red lining of your lips, and staining your fingernails. Said you<br />

touched me with both of them. If I read it right I would not leave empty handed.<br />

Empty hearted. We walked out of the theatre gloved hand in gloved hand. You<br />

spoke of your favourite albums. We disputed the notoriety of Joanna Newsom’s<br />

voice. Told me she is the best writer you’ve ever heard. Your fingers are always<br />

marked with pen. I know you’re trying.<br />

I just wanted to walk in silence. Our hot feet melted the snow; our hot breath<br />

clouded the glass in our eyes. We reached the coffee house. It put a pause on your<br />

running mouth and my dripping nose. I dropped a few sentences, dribbling spiders.<br />

They were attached to my teeth by the strings of their webs. You talked more<br />

when we sat down. My red dress faded like the sky outside. Through the window,<br />

homeless men sat like statues beside their brothers of cold stone buildings. You<br />

giggled at how my nose wiggled when I spoke. I tittered at your puns. Your motor<br />

finally sputtered. Took your hands and held them to my cheeks, smelled the coffee<br />

and soap. Kissed your fingers and thumbs, palms and wrists. You have perfect wrists.<br />

You drove me home. I apologized for not speaking. I don’t think you understood.<br />

Stepped out of the car and waved good-bye. Sprawled out in the deep feet of snow.<br />

Froze there until I unraveled: Ten thousand spiders dead in the cold.<br />

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Will Gordon<br />

The Oracle’s Guard<br />

Cepra glanced at the door he was guarding. He adjusted his chair again until he was certain no one could<br />

sneak past him. He looked down the brightly lit hallway as a man approached.<br />

“Still the oracle’s guard are you Cepra?” Asked the man as he passed by.<br />

“It’s Oracle Vaura,” corrected Cepra. He crossed his arms and scowled when he recognized the man. “Get<br />

out of here if all you’re going to do is cause trouble.”<br />

“Alright!” growled the man, quickly leaving down the hallway.<br />

Cepra looked around the hallway and relaxed.<br />

“Quit being so jumpy,” he whispered to himself. The guard had never been like this before on a job.<br />

That’s what you get for falling in love! He didn’t know how, but he had fallen in love with Vaura.<br />

The oracle was very secretive. Cepra was only allowed into the room to escort guests, and never past the<br />

violet curtains. The voices in his head jeered him about his feelings for her. He had never seen her full face.<br />

Vaura wore a large blue cloak that almost completely engulfed her. The guard rarely saw her, until it was time<br />

to escort her to her living quarters. Even then she stayed hidden. “You’re an idiot,” Cepra told himself, punching<br />

himself in the leg. He was getting used to these feelings though. Cepra had never had luck with love.<br />

Cepra quickly grabbed his chair as the door opened. A pale man quickly left the room. Cepra watched the<br />

customer leave. The man didn’t look very happy. Vaura slowly appeared at the doorway and watched her supplicant<br />

leave. Cepra looked at her and almost blushed. In an effort to hide his redness, if it did come, Cepra<br />

bowed to her and watched the pale man go away.<br />

“If it is not too much to ask, I’m assuming that things didn’t go well,” Cepra said, trying to make conversation.<br />

He silently cursed after he said it.<br />

“It is not too much to ask,” Vaura said. Cepra’s neck prickled as his hair stood up. He loved listening to her<br />

accented voice. He loved everything about her.<br />

“My customer asked when he would die. I warned him about asking such questions from one like me. He<br />

refused and demanded. That man is going to die tonight. Poor soul.” Cepra turned and stared at her. Her<br />

face was hidden to him, but she moved a hand out of her cloak and toyed with the glowing rock on a necklace.<br />

Cepra stared down at her hand and the necklace. One of the few things the guard knew about her was that<br />

the necklace was precious to her.<br />

In his thoughts, Cepra came to his senses as a snap sounded. The glowing rock on her necklace fell off. Vaura<br />

made a mad grab at the rock, missing it as it tumbled to the ground. Cepra fell to the ground and caught the<br />

glowing rock. At the same moment Vaura too fell to the ground and they knocked heads.<br />

“Sorry!” Cepra moved backwards. He opened his hand and gave the rock back to her.<br />

“It’s okay. Thank you,” she said, clutching the rock. Vaura attempted to retie the rock back onto her necklace,<br />

but failed.<br />

“Let me,” offered Cepra.<br />

Vaura looked up at him. Her eyes were the only things Cepra could see of her face. She handed over the<br />

necklace and watched him like a hawk. Strangely, Cepra didn’t blush as he thought he would when she looked<br />

at him. He retied the necklace in an efficient knot, tested the strength of it and handed it back to Vaura. The<br />

oracle placed back on her necklace, finding it a suitable fit.<br />

“Thank you again,” Vaura said. She got up and went back into her room.<br />

“My pleasure,” Cepra said, speaking the truth. He softly closed the door and replaced his chair.<br />

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Cepra woke from his daydreams as an armed man came down the hallway. Cepra drew his gladius from his belt<br />

and raised it.<br />

“Disarm yourself!” the guard yelled at the man. The man hid his face in his cloak.<br />

“Of course!” the man responded. He drew his weapons and tossed them on the ground. The man raised his cloak,<br />

but not his hood, to show Cepra that he didn’t have any more weapons.<br />

“Alright, approach!” Cepra told him. The man walked up to Cepra.<br />

“I wish to see the oracle,” the man said.<br />

“Oracle Vaura,” corrected Cepra. “Do you have an appointment?”<br />

“No.”<br />

Cepra checked the scroll containing Vaura’s timetable.<br />

“She doesn’t have an appointment. I’ll go and tell her,” Cepra said.<br />

“Good,” the man said. He pulled off his hood. Cepra instantly remembered the man as the customer Vaura had<br />

prophesized to die. The pale man drew a knife and stabbed Cepra in the chest. Cepra went down to the ground,<br />

blood staining his shirt. He dropped his gladius. Blackness took his sight and he heard the door being kicked<br />

opened.<br />

I’m dying, Cepra thought as the pain grew. He knew what the pale man was going to do. The man was going to kill<br />

Vaura. Not her! Not her! Don’t let her die! She isn’t going to die! Cepra coughed and staggered up. His love<br />

for Vaura overcame the pain in his chest. He looked down and saw that the dagger had sliced deep. Cepra grabbed<br />

his gladius and stumbled into Vaura’s room.<br />

Cepra entered Vaura’s room and pushed through the violet curtains. He found the oracle struggling against the<br />

pale man as he tried to slash her throat. The pale man laughed as he overpowered her.<br />

“You touch her again, and I’ll make sure her prophecy about you comes true!” warned Cepra. The guard raised<br />

his gladius and advanced.<br />

The pale man looked up and used Vaura as a hostage.<br />

“I’ll kill her!” he screamed, and pulled away her cloak. Cepra barely registered her beauty, only seeing the fear in<br />

her eyes.<br />

“You…” growled Cepra. He wondered what he was going to do to save the woman he loved. The pale man raised<br />

his dagger closer to Vaura’s throat. Cepra knew he had only one action. The guard threw his gladius to the ground<br />

and raised his hands in defeat. Vaura’s eyes filled with more fear. Cepra’s heart felt as if he had been stabbed again.<br />

The pale man laughed. The former customer pushed Vaura to the ground and rushed at Cepra. A grin spread<br />

across Cepra’s face. He had always appreciated irony. Cepra drew his own dagger from his secret spot and stabbed<br />

the pale man in the heart. The pale man coughed blood and stared at Cepra. He hadn’t had a chance to react.<br />

Cepra staggered to Vaura to make sure she was okay.<br />

“Are you alright?” he asked. His concern for her was clear, but he no longer cared about hiding his feelings. Vaura<br />

nodded in response.<br />

“Let me see your wound,” she asked. The oracle took out a box and treated Cepra’s wound.<br />

“You better sit down, you’ve lost a lot of blood,” Vaura told him.<br />

Cepra gathered Vaura’s cloak and handed it back to her. He sat down quickly as he felt dizzy. Vaura came over and<br />

placed her necklace around his neck. Cepra froze at the display of love from her. Vaura came to him and hugged<br />

him.<br />

“I don’t think I’ll sleep after this,” Vaura said. “Poor man.” The oracle looked at the darkening sky. “Stay with<br />

me…please.”<br />

Cepra nodded and let himself smile.<br />

“I’m here.”<br />

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Rebecca Thera<br />

Bombs Chase Me<br />

to My Grave<br />

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Poisoned ground smeared on my skin.<br />

Mud thick with this murderer’s sin.<br />

I often imagine my clever demise.<br />

Sinister, romantic and filled with lies.<br />

Red roses lined up around my pine box.<br />

A fateful battle with deadly small pox.<br />

A strong hand on my delicate white face.<br />

Teary mourners layered in gentle black lace.<br />

There’s no one here to cry over me now,<br />

as blood seeps slowly over my brow.<br />

I shift my head to glance at my arm.<br />

I gag and retch back, dizzy with alarm.<br />

I pray to be taken from this earth.<br />

My perfect home is Satan’s hearth.<br />

Whose body is this? Torn and mangled,<br />

it can’t be my limbs, at these strange angles.<br />

A million others are dead at my side.<br />

Numbness hits me with a dysphoric tide.<br />

Darkness encloses me in his embrace.<br />

I leave the charred remains of this place.<br />

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Ben Whittaker<br />

The iPod Generation<br />

15<br />

I don’t want to know<br />

I’ve got my own problems to deal with<br />

I can’t take care of the world<br />

I can’t take care of them<br />

I need to make sure<br />

My iPod has the right songs<br />

That the logo on my shoe is visible<br />

That my hair is not emo<br />

And that I don’t look like a fag<br />

Where did my shirt come from?<br />

I got it from The Gap<br />

It’s a bit too tight<br />

But it says The Gap<br />

Oh, where was it made?<br />

I don’t know<br />

I can’t pronounce it<br />

What are we having for dinner?<br />

Shall it be baked Alaska?<br />

Or chicken cordon bleu?<br />

Tommy, eat your vegetables<br />

A starving child in Africa could live off of your supper<br />

For three days<br />

And yes, take some brown beans for the food drive<br />

I’m not giving them tomato soup<br />

I like tomato soup<br />

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Sarah Neufeld<br />

The Age of Computers<br />

Intense blue eyes shine in the glare of the computer screen, the red rimmed irises darting across the monitor,<br />

quickly glancing at flashing icons. Beads of sweat stand out on a pale forehead, which at the moment is furrowed<br />

in concentration. Nimble fingers move across the keyboard with practiced ease. Rows of letters and<br />

numbers flood the screen in random pattern, a foreign language known only by its author.<br />

A window pops up, bolded text appears inside.<br />

NEO_THEI says: Are you in yet?<br />

thekid says: no<br />

NEO _THEI says: I thought you’d be quicker than this, the recommendations I received made me think you’d<br />

be amazing.<br />

thekid says: at least I’m quicker than you :P<br />

NEO_THEI says: Just tell me when you’re finished, all right.<br />

the kid says: 0_0<br />

With a quick click he closes the window, the rhythm of the keyboard resumes. He enters commands, fingers<br />

dancing furiously over the alphabet. He’s been trying to crack this system for days and has only just recently<br />

bypassed the outer firewalls; it’s a tough system. He knows he’ll need to be alert now, if he isn’t his hard drive<br />

will be fried. He swallows nervously, wondering if it’s really worth it. After all, his computer is his most prized<br />

possession.<br />

He shakes off his fear; he can do it. At any rate, it’s too late to go back now. He charges in, destroying firewalls<br />

and cracking passwords, imagining himself to be a warlord, with the keyboard as his mighty sword. He chuckles<br />

silently to himself and continues typing. This will be one big payoff.<br />

He’ll be able to get some more RAM, or maybe that new graphics card, or- his thoughts are interrupted as the<br />

screen begins flashing a warning. Instantly he knows they’re onto him. His eyes widen, his breathing quickens,<br />

his fingers tremble on the keyboard. He’s frozen. The flashing screen is like a beacon in his mind. He is exposed;<br />

they see him. ‘No,’ he thinks, ‘I won’t let this happen, I’m better than them.’<br />

Adrenaline pumps through his veins. An onslaught of genius attacks him; an epiphany. Concentrating, he forces<br />

his joints to move. By the breadth of hair, he escapes their clutches. He freezes his enemies in their tracks,<br />

overloading their CPU’s and destroying whatever security they have left. He feels a sense of triumph as he<br />

sails past what’s left of the system. He opens up a window.<br />

the kid says: i’m in XD<br />

NEO_THEI says: Nice work... how was it?<br />

the kid says: your system needs work, any decent hacker could get in<br />

NEO_THEI says: Send your analysis and suggestions and we’ll send you the paycheck.<br />

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the kid says: i’ll mail it tomorrow<br />

NEO_THEI says: Silver Electronic Enterprises thanks you.<br />

the kid says: @ :P<br />

NEO_THEI says: Can’t you just say thanks like a normal person!<br />

He closes the window and shuts down his computer. Standing, he stretches and heads upstairs. “Finally you’re<br />

up!” says his mother. “Jimmy called, he’s inviting you to his birthday party. He’s ten now right?”<br />

“Yup same age as me,” replies Billy as he heads to the door. “I think I’ll go play at the park today, okay mum?”<br />

“Sure. Anything to get you off those computer games you like. Kids these days never go outside anymore.<br />

-I’m so glad you’re not like that, Billy.”<br />

“... of course mum,” says Billy.<br />

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Jocelyn Lukan<br />

Light Bulb Moments<br />

This species has never completely<br />

made its escape<br />

from the Garden of Eden.<br />

We live in a skipping record<br />

Making the same mistakes.<br />

Making the same mistakes.<br />

Making the same…<br />

Listen to the reptilian whispers<br />

and eat of the forbidden fruit.<br />

Devour it early on<br />

through needles and dust and vapors;<br />

sometimes a light bulb<br />

torn from its place on the ceiling –<br />

smouldering, searing hot in the night.<br />

Does it even matter that it’s dark?<br />

Then stagnant gazes<br />

can’t view sick reflections<br />

staring back through shattered glass.<br />

It seemed brilliant at the time.<br />

Please, a drop of ammonia to cool my tongue…<br />

These sins redden our eyes.<br />

Crawling limbs contused;<br />

acidic boils that burst and fester<br />

with a horrible release.<br />

Will any of us see morning?<br />

Our creator chooses the damned<br />

with his fatherly judgment.<br />

They end in prisons or hospitals<br />

with cold white walls;<br />

controlled by machines.<br />

The lucky ones<br />

end their wasted fling in paradise<br />

with a long rest in the morgue<br />

and a longer one in the dirt.<br />

The sweetest sleep.<br />

So let’s fly away to Eden,<br />

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and choke our misery<br />

in hundreds<br />

of broken light bulb moments.<br />

“It’s the only way out,” they say.<br />

We’ll crumble<br />

like the walls of fallen Babylon.<br />

Or burn to ash<br />

like Sodom and Gomorrah.<br />

It’s such a waste of life.<br />

Such a wasted life.<br />

Victoria Bridge Blues<br />

spoken word<br />

attempted<br />

lips crack<br />

; sounds of symphonies<br />

not words<br />

pour from hot mouth<br />

: not enough to distinguish<br />

the river, water aflame<br />

smoke billow ascends up<br />

smoothstretched<br />

<strong>Saskatchewan</strong> skies<br />

sprinkle your ashes<br />

upon taught forehead flesh<br />

my sister<br />

and i<br />

tear our clothing<br />

, wail in grief<br />

, hung<br />

her lover<br />

a mobile of sorrows<br />

yet hasn’t quit<br />

whispering in my ear<br />

since four; a deep December mourning<br />

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Jocelyn Lukan<br />

Feline Simplicity<br />

tired question<br />

over and<br />

over<br />

why<br />

can I not sit;<br />

a cat<br />

beside the fireplace?<br />

curled upon myself<br />

in radiant bliss<br />

I would lay<br />

calmly<br />

licking<br />

my amber fur<br />

instead to be<br />

page three-hundred one<br />

torn from romantic novel<br />

the part where<br />

the heroine dies<br />

(natural sacrifice,<br />

for her lover)<br />

hinging fingers<br />

create my life<br />

to paper cranes;<br />

wings crackling into flight<br />

between creases<br />

listen for shining silver bell<br />

tolling from my collar<br />

for rest<br />

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white is not black<br />

white is not black;<br />

it is a blank page<br />

to be spit on in ink<br />

also naïve candy virgin<br />

waiting<br />

waiting<br />

waiting to be<br />

torn open marked discarded<br />

it is not the color<br />

shadows<br />

are composed of –<br />

[stealthy, malicious]<br />

it is - in fact<br />

a >slap<<br />

in the face<br />

from a stranger informing<br />

that it is completely unacceptable<br />

to dance in the rain<br />

on a sunny day<br />

rainbows :<br />

- assorted color masses<br />

- a twisted tie-dye of character<br />

- finest silk ribbons<br />

whereas white<br />

is consistently<br />

the pigment with no pigment<br />

nothing;<br />

nothing but absence<br />

white is only black<br />

in a singular respect<br />

: neither are red<br />

or blue<br />

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i am<br />

acid trip –<br />

white line fairy dust<br />

for real men<br />

fearless women<br />

there will be<br />

no<br />

more<br />

rain<br />

water dripping trees<br />

as tap left on<br />

bathing in /piss/ and \fear\<br />

sketch<br />

not on papers no papers need papers<br />

leaf through bible<br />

holy texts<br />

that make you cry<br />

with onion skin pages<br />

solving life when rolled correctly<br />

bend backwards back breaking back arching<br />

bridge for<br />

tiny demons<br />

crawl down open throat<br />

with tiny pickaxes<br />

digging for gold<br />

in the morning<br />

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Katherine Sthamann<br />

Dear Santa<br />

I’m not going to pretend that I’m the proper age to be writing this letter to you. Let’s just put it out<br />

there, I’m 16. And a half. I’m not going to pretend that I’m even sure I believe in you. I will not sit<br />

here and say I’ve been good this year, because really, I haven’t. But I think I score some points for<br />

honesty, so please hear me out. There’s this boy I know. His hair is always messy and his shoes have<br />

holes in them. He says fuck at the end of all his sentences. I know it’s a far cry from the “tall, dark<br />

and handsome” but I can’t help myself. I wish I could. I like him, Santa. Like a dog to table food, a<br />

math teacher to his calculator, like a preteen girl and the colour purple. You could even say I like him<br />

a lot. Don’t act like you don’t know what I’m talking about. It couldn’t have been that long ago when<br />

you first met Mrs. Claus, with the snow dancing around her rosy cheeks, the hint of perfume on her<br />

neck. It’s the same thing for me, pretty much, except with fog dancing around the lenses of his glasses,<br />

and a hint of stubble, not perfume, on his neck. I’m a Christian girl so I could’ve very well went elsewhere<br />

with my request. But I figured I’d need bigger issues than teenage romance to go to the boss,<br />

what with acronym pandemics, global warming and all. What I’m trying to say is, I’m not expecting a<br />

miracle. I’m not going to ask you to make him like me back. What I will ask you to work your magic<br />

on, however, is this thing he has. That thing that makes my bladder all crazy so that I have to go to<br />

the bathroom like 5 times a day. His locker is on the way to the washroom. That thing that makes<br />

me giggle. Giggle. What do I want to do with this thing, you ask? Destroy it. Take it and feed it to a<br />

snow blower, burn it at the stake. I want this thing gone, history, finished, if not for my sanity’s sake<br />

but for my friends. I really don’t think they care how cute he looks with his touque on sideways, and<br />

frankly, they cannot analyze body language any better than I can (you’re a guy, what does a side glance<br />

in my direction mean? I think the clock on the wall behind me could be a variable, no?). If you could<br />

successfully exterminate that dreaded thing of his, I would have the merriest of Christmases. Or you<br />

could just give him body odour, one of the two.<br />

Thanks in advance,<br />

Jody Height<br />

P.S. His address is 4210 Jones Road, if that helps. And no, I totally did not follow him home on my<br />

bike that one day in order to find out that information.<br />

P.P.S. Okay, so maybe I did. You see what he does to me?<br />

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Charlie Peters<br />

The Astronomy of Friends<br />

and Strangers<br />

People orbit my life.<br />

Sometimes I feel their gravitational pull<br />

on my equator.<br />

Often they are as moons,<br />

faithful, but also demanding:<br />

always trying to guide<br />

the tide of my oceanic mind.<br />

Infrequently they are comets,<br />

in vast loops, beautiful<br />

regardless of the cost<br />

of their coveted tail.<br />

Yet most seem to be asteroids,<br />

with their own lunar<br />

orbits, blank pieces of rock<br />

with which I will never<br />

interact.<br />

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Renee Dumont<br />

Relationships<br />

Pointless moments in life<br />

make you worry about every word said,<br />

paint on a face to look perfect and push earrings<br />

through the tiny holes made to hang cheap<br />

pieces of plastic which will cause infection<br />

but you will still wear anyway because he says<br />

you “look good” with them on.<br />

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Ceara Caton<br />

Nightmare<br />

The girl stepped out into the alley’s glow. He wouldn’t be on her trail for a while. She had time to rest. At<br />

least for a moment she would try to seize back the air that had been deprived from her as she ran. The<br />

ground beneath her feet was littered with fragments of broken glass and garbage. Mammoth cardboard boxes<br />

towered above her small outline as she curled herself in the space between the two buildings. The air around<br />

her was heavy and smelled strongly of the filth that prevailed through the city.<br />

She rocked back and forth, trying to create any warmth she could. Her elbow knocked against a brick and<br />

cursing, she put pressure on the scrape to convince it not to bleed. The last thing she needed was another<br />

injury, no matter how minor it was.<br />

She rose from her nest. Resting time was over, no matter how much her muscles ached. Footsteps echoed in<br />

the alley behind her. Spinning around, she saw nothing, but crouched back into her hiding spot just in case. She<br />

looked and her anxiety eased as she realized it was just an old drunken man, trying to find his solace in the<br />

dark. Almost like her, running from something, not even sure what it was.<br />

Well at least I’m not stumbling around drunk. The thought rang hollow inside her. A voice in her head laughed<br />

sardonically. At least no one is trying to kill him.<br />

She got up and stretched. The bruises on her arms and thighs were starting to show more clearly now. They<br />

looked black in comparison to her pale skin. She could almost make out his fingerprints where he had held<br />

back her arms, and on her legs, where he had thrust them apart. She scolded herself again for not changing<br />

clothes. Her short jean cutoffs did nothing against the cold of the alley; they did nothing to cover the marks<br />

that the last few days had left her with.<br />

Looking around, she took a survey of her surroundings. She couldn’t see much because of the dark, but a light<br />

farther down the roadway was all she needed to read the street sign. Kingsley Ave. The name opened another<br />

emotional wound as she remembered a small diner a few blocks away. One of the many times he had tried to<br />

apologize, he had taken her there for breakfast. Back when he actually cared enough to make her happy.<br />

She made her way past the wino who seemed to have fallen asleep where he fell. She picked her way over the<br />

broken debris and carefully tried not to make a sound. She looked over her shoulder, aware of every shadow<br />

that she passed; trying not to imagine a man ready to jump out at her.<br />

She could be with her family right now. Her mother had said she shouldn’t have left to go with him. She had<br />

been so young at the time, and was now cast out on the street, running for her life at twenty-one.<br />

A part of her wanted to call her mother, wanted to ask to come home. But she was stronger than this. She<br />

could never call. Her mother could never know.<br />

As she rounded the corner at the end of the alley and turned onto an empty street, she allowed herself to<br />

sink into a memory. She didn’t do this often for fear that she would break down and completely lose her<br />

nerve.<br />

It was her wedding day; everything had been perfect. They didn’t have the money for a nice proper wedding in<br />

a church, but she had done her best to fix up her mother’s garden for the special event. The small family wedding<br />

remained in her mind as the most beautiful afternoon of her life. She still had a clear image of walking<br />

around the corner of the house down the flowered aisle. It was the same corner of the building she had torn<br />

around countless times, running with her friends when she was young. Part of her saw it as a right of passage.<br />

She was really growing up. No more games and running around as a child. Her wedding day had arrived and<br />

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she had finally matured into a place where she chose the responsibilities of a wife.<br />

The thought had now turned into a disheartening realization. As an adult she still had so much more to learn.<br />

Her story had only begun to grow and it had already been wounded.<br />

She stayed in the darkest areas, walking, almost clinging to the building walls. Her fear of being caught was<br />

more pronounced because she couldn’t see the man that wanted to hurt her. It’s hard to run from something<br />

you can’t see, or hide from someone you know will find you.<br />

I know you’re in here. I just want to apologize. You know I didn’t mean to hurt you. It was an accident. His coaxing<br />

tone echoed in her mind.<br />

The pains of her past shot through her yet again. Most nights she had hidden and cried until the next morning<br />

when he drove off to work.<br />

There was a part of her that she hated; the part of her that never fought back, the part of her that threatened<br />

to leave but never had the will power to follow through. Was it considered strong to cower, as long as<br />

she didn’t ask for help?<br />

As she moved forward, her tender walk showed her need. She didn’t want to remember him anymore. All<br />

she wanted was a new life somewhere safe.<br />

It was almost daylight and she hadn’t gone very far. The thought of him calling her name from his white<br />

Dodge truck frightened her, and she picked up her pace.<br />

The dark enveloped her as she turned into a different alley. Now that she felt hidden, she sat down to rest<br />

again. The night seemed calm, and sleep beckoned to her. Eventually it claimed her, throwing her into tormented<br />

dreams.<br />

The distress of the nightmare shook her small frame; even in her sleep her arms rose with tremors. The<br />

images were burned behind her eyes. Her husband’s last sentiments played over and over. The memory of<br />

unrelenting laughter and of her own pathetic screams finally tore her back into the alley.<br />

Her arms and legs slowly unfolded, stiff from the cold, she started to walk, looking up at the stars. They<br />

seemed to help her carry on. She had been to church as a child, but never really believed in God. Now, in<br />

her time of need she felt silly starting into the sky, hoping for a miracle.<br />

You are as strong as you think you are. Her mother’s words flowed through her as if she whispered in her ear.<br />

The broken spirit gave one last effort to stand. She gasped in pain and began to run towards the glow of<br />

morning. Slowly at first, and finally sprinting like she had as a child, she rounded the corner to find the same<br />

diner. A waitress set tables and looked questioningly with worried eyes.<br />

She laughed. She had known it all along. You are only as strong as you think you are.<br />

“Please, ma’am, may I borrow your phone.”<br />

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Arden Angley<br />

Widower<br />

I’m so happy you can control your temper<br />

with such dignity. Throwing blankets and chairs,<br />

even me if I gave you the chance.<br />

I’m glad that I have to lie about your<br />

whereabouts when you decide to up and leave.<br />

Above all, I thank you<br />

for the childhood that I am clawing at and clinging to,<br />

for facing things I’m not supposed to<br />

and for growing up too fast.<br />

Because it’s so fulfilling to watch your<br />

kids rot from the inside<br />

right, dad?<br />

To watch the tears multiply like maggots<br />

right, dad?<br />

I remind you of everyone<br />

and you remind me that I am<br />

the worthless daughter you were stuck<br />

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Your woman soft and small<br />

I. Prior<br />

Like when she was one<br />

she loved him as a ghost.<br />

For lack of reason<br />

he teased her with silence.<br />

The tongue of which corpses speak.<br />

Death is only in the air.<br />

She’d breathe in and swallow<br />

the idea of him.<br />

Alone and gasping,<br />

she’d remember<br />

that ghost was mine.<br />

II. Ideal<br />

In his palms, he held her<br />

safe and sound in the boundary,<br />

between thumb and forefinger.<br />

The two of them tied a string around the swelling of her<br />

heart.<br />

Morning after- bulbs broke; soil soaked.<br />

The water climbed her cotton shirt.<br />

Nothing he could say would move her eyes from his lips.<br />

He sees what isn’t said.<br />

The stories between her teeth,<br />

small secrets in the gaps of her gums.<br />

III. Present<br />

She said<br />

“I’ve drowned today.<br />

I floated in luke warm water. I bloated in thoughts<br />

of my mother.”<br />

He said<br />

“Life is feeble.”<br />

She said<br />

“It was when I grew beyond my years.<br />

I’m always older, drowning<br />

in my wisdom.”<br />

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Hayley Muench<br />

The Chinese Restaurant<br />

The long string of dingy brass bells tinkled against<br />

the dull silver door frame, stirred by the sudden thrust of<br />

the glass door and the reckless gust of winter wind that followed<br />

it. The thick, warm atmosphere of the tiny restaurant<br />

immediately evaporated the cold, its unwelcome guest. It<br />

was replaced with the all too familiar mugginess, a combination<br />

of the sizzling deep fryers and the balmy breath of undisturbed<br />

conversation, melding together from each individual<br />

table. Patches of haze lingered in the room, from smoke<br />

emitted from smouldering ashtrays and steam from the hot<br />

dishes of Chinese food. Candles flickered a red glow from<br />

inside their molded, wax covered glass jars, contrasting the<br />

dim illumination overhead from the low brass fixtures. The<br />

oriental print rug, worn and faded, seemed to be the only<br />

thing that tied the restaurant together. Mismatched pictures<br />

of strange faces from the homeland hung unevenly on<br />

the wall, coated with a thick layer of dust that seemed to<br />

have an intention of permanence. No music played in the<br />

background; instead the room was filled with the insignificant<br />

sounds of clinking silverware, and voices as dull as the<br />

tablecloths the words were exchanged over. Sometimes,<br />

over the hushed chatter of the couples engrossed in their<br />

meals and conversation, the broken English of an ancient<br />

Chinese woman, skin like the bark of a bonsai tree, could be<br />

heard. This restaurant was her home, with bits and pieces<br />

of her memories, life, and culture, cluttering the walls – its<br />

only purpose to remind her that she was not lost in this<br />

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strange country. Yet behind her small, creased eyes, were<br />

secrets held as the novelty fortune cookies held their<br />

trivial messages. Each couple eventually cracked them<br />

open, eyes grazing the red typed message printed on the<br />

slip for a small instant before they became less favoured<br />

to the crunchy treat. And after that, they got up, carelessly<br />

slinging their coats on and venturing out into the frigid<br />

evening as the forgotten paper fluttered with silence to<br />

the oriental carpet. When closing time finally crept upon<br />

the restaurant, the old woman carefully tucked each slip<br />

away in a hand made box sent back from her home country.<br />

She never forgot the people who came and went, as<br />

they were not trivial to her, and neither were the printed<br />

fortunes she so devotedly saved.<br />

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Amanda Ahner<br />

Toothflesh<br />

I sit in their chair, the sole performer on this stage lit by an overhead lamp. Four rubber<br />

hands execute murderous ballet in my mouth. Dull eyes blink back at me from<br />

behind thick-lensed and masked mouths. With antiseptic tones they address one<br />

another, ignoring the subject upon their operating table, sterilized words. A slight<br />

waver betrays excitement in his voice; she hands him the needle. Silent screams<br />

shatter inward silence.<br />

The spider vines creep through my cheek, numbing my nerves, my tongue, my throat.<br />

Impossible to breathe through accumulating spit. He whips out his shiny pokers and<br />

prodders, tools with names known only to him. His pride is the drill, handed to him<br />

last. I see a smile hidden by his mask, an antiseptic smile, before he zealously assaults<br />

my enamel. Spectral chains enclose my wrists and ankles, preventing a speedy escape,<br />

mentally shackled by hardwired codes of etiquette. Vapours of nauseating toothflesh<br />

attack my nostrils, inhaling the dust of my slaughtered self.<br />

Held captive by a blue sheet of rubber, electric drill buzzing in my head; I wonder<br />

how they might silence my screams. I clench my teeth together trapping all in my<br />

jaw. Broken stubs of former fingers spill rivets of blood down my throat. Suffocating,<br />

I choke on thick life.<br />

Held captive by a blue sheet of rubber, a mist of water and bone shavings sprays my<br />

face, I realize the freezing is just for this purpose; to prevent rogue teeth from biting<br />

precious dentistry hands. Between that and the bright lights, a complete sedation to<br />

create the perfect complacent victim.<br />

Lying in their chair, I let myself fade, and wonder what etiquette demands of meeting<br />

my dentist in the grocery store.<br />

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Amanda Ahner<br />

Bright Lights<br />

They never turn these lights off you know. Cold words<br />

tumble from her lips as she sits, stone still, a frozen embodiment<br />

of apathy. Her long wheat blond hair cascades from<br />

her shoulders, glinting dully in the harsh industrial light of<br />

the white room. No days, no nights, no passage of time. A<br />

cold perpetual sun. Hard light to drive the insane, insane. The<br />

words cut through the deaf silence with no echoes to greet<br />

her ears. The sound is dead on her thirsty being. Her voice,<br />

her thoughts, her memories, no longer soothe the loneliness,<br />

yet she continues to speak.<br />

There’s no imagination in the brightness, only the cold<br />

hard truth. Slowly untangling her lithe body from its crosslegged<br />

position, she lifts herself from the floor. A hint of<br />

regret tints her harsh tone. In the dark, I could imagine you<br />

were here with me, that I was there, with you.<br />

Nostalgically she wanders through the room, as if it<br />

were a place from a dream. I live in the memories these days,<br />

the bright, blinding memories. She stops at an invisible kitchen<br />

sink, her voice softer now, like ice. His blood was so beautiful.<br />

The blood that washed off my hands, and spiraled down the<br />

drain. I remember I kept all the lights on that night. I wanted to<br />

watch them die beside me.<br />

Pacing across the open floor she wades through<br />

the memories, remembering her daughter’s whimpers in<br />

the dark. Callie was her name. She always needed a nightlight<br />

at her bedside. A vivid image of Callie’s midnight tears<br />

scrawled across her mind. The night the bulb burnt out, I<br />

came to her, and held her close in the darkness. Closing her<br />

eyes, she wraps the unseen child in her arms and rocks<br />

her back and forth to an unsung lullaby. But now, I’ll never<br />

hold her and I’ll never hold him. Her calm face breaks into an<br />

anguished grimace as she shouts into empty space. But he’ll,<br />

he’ll never hold Her. And I’ll never have to wonder when he’s<br />

coming home, or who he’s with. I’ll never find them in our bed!<br />

Retreating into the back corner of the cell she holds<br />

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herself in pitiful self-righteousness, lamenting her condition<br />

to the lights, her only audience. No, I never did anything<br />

wrong, I didn’t kill him. They shouldn’t have locked me<br />

up. He betrayed me! Betrayed our life together! The life I<br />

built! She thinks of the home that had been ripped apart<br />

by his adulterous excursions, a home that at the back of<br />

her subconscious, she knows never really existed. Tears<br />

began to stream down her light blanched face. In this<br />

living nightmare of the mind she won’t accept the truth<br />

that lies before her.<br />

Rising from the corner she ambles to center<br />

stage, her eyes large and mournful but her voice calm.<br />

They told me she is dead, but it can’t be true. They just don’t<br />

want me to look for her when I get out. She remembers<br />

that they told her she’d never get out. She would be<br />

stuck in this room, forever. The room with the lights.<br />

She pauses and her fragmented thoughts return<br />

to the man, her husband, who’d betrayed her. He must<br />

have taken her away. He took her away, yet her rational<br />

mind knows the truth. He’s dead. I killed him.<br />

Slowly she lowers her slim, colourless body<br />

to the floor where she kneels in cold reverence, eyes<br />

closed, her face empty.<br />

The blood, his blood, her blood, drips onto the sheet,<br />

onto the floor. It trickles down the knife, down my arm. I<br />

hear a footstep behind me, and I turn. “Mommy?” I hesitate,<br />

but my hand is too quick, and she falls to the floor.<br />

Awakening from the trance, Sara blinks her eyes<br />

rapidly and then settles herself crossed legged on the<br />

floor. They never turn these lights off you know. No days, no<br />

nights. No passage of time. A cold perpetual sun. Hard light<br />

to drive the insane, insane.<br />

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i’m getting older,<br />

balloons fill my room.<br />

my mommy takes care of me.<br />

she could buy me whatever i want.<br />

i wish,<br />

feeling alone and helpless,<br />

i lay in my bed for someone to tuck me in.<br />

i cry.<br />

thrusting my mind into lunacy,<br />

anxiously chewing on my slowly crippling nail,<br />

glued to my ever-shrinking memory.<br />

glued to my ever shrinking memory,<br />

anxiously chewing on my slowly crippling nail,<br />

thrusting my mind into lunacy.<br />

i cry.<br />

i lay in my bed for someone to tuck me in,<br />

feeling alone and helpless.<br />

i wish,<br />

she could buy me whatever i want.<br />

my mommy takes care of me.<br />

balloons fill my room,<br />

i’m getting older.<br />

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Daughter to Mother<br />

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Sarah Neufeld<br />

The Last Tea Party<br />

Mister Jenkins and Miss Jillian are sitting around a<br />

small wooden table. Dressed in their finest, a bowtie and<br />

yellow sundress respectively, they wait for their host to arrive.<br />

Becky, the host, enters the room. She closes the door behind<br />

her with a soft click. She is carrying mother’s best china teapot.<br />

She holds it gently so as not to break it, but also firmly<br />

so as not to drop it. Becky places the teapot in the center of<br />

the table.<br />

The table looks like a galaxy, moon saucers, satellite<br />

cups, and comet spoons all orbiting the teapot like it’s the<br />

center of the universe. Becky begins to giggle, then quickly<br />

covers her mouth, smothering her smile. Mum is sleeping just<br />

next door. Becky kneels at the table, elegantly spreading her<br />

handkerchief across her knees. Mister Jenkins and Miss Jillian<br />

look at her expectantly, unwavering expressions sewn to their<br />

faces. Becky speaks softly, “Hello Mister Jenkins, Miss Jillian,<br />

I’m so sorry to have kept you waiting. Shall we begin?”<br />

Becky’s hand upon Mister Jenkins’ neck forces him to<br />

nod. Becky smiles, “Well then, I’ll pour the tea, but only if you<br />

tell me where you got that beautiful bowtie from. It looks<br />

very nice on you…what’s that? You got it while on vacation!<br />

In Disneyland! You have to tell us about it! Why I’ve always<br />

wanted to go there. Tell me, is the castle as big as it looks?”<br />

Becky becomes silent after speaking this.<br />

“Maybe Mum will take me there next time.” Becky’s<br />

mother had gone to Disneyland once before; her boyfriend at<br />

the time had two kids. “I wasn’t invited that time; Mum said I<br />

was a bad girl so I couldn’t go…he doesn’t like bad kids. If I<br />

could have gone I would have been so good, like an angel…”<br />

Becky stares at the table blinking her eyes quickly. She brings<br />

her hanky up to her face and holds it there. She is completely<br />

still for a moment, then shudders and returns the hankie to<br />

her lap.<br />

“Sorry Miss Jillian, Mister Jenkins, I had something in<br />

my eye. Oh, look at this! I forgot to pour the tea! I’m sorry!<br />

What an awful host I’ve been!” Becky picks up the teapot<br />

and with care fills the tiny teacups with invisible tea. “There<br />

you are…what’s that Miss Jillian? Sugar you say? Of course,<br />

one lump or two? Two? Certainly.” Becky drops two imagi-<br />

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nary lumps of sugar into the invisible tea. “Now we’re<br />

all set, except…we don’t have any snacks!” Becky<br />

always gets cookies from Mrs. Phillips next door.<br />

With haste Becky sets her teacup on the table.<br />

She rises from the floor, bumping her knee on the<br />

underside of the table. The teapot, which is resting on<br />

the edge of the table, teeters on the lip. Becky rushes<br />

towards it. The white molded china slips. It seems to<br />

fall in slow motion, but still, Becky does not reach it in<br />

time. It hits the floor. Becky’s face is ashen. She sighs<br />

sinking to her knees, her limbs feel like jelly. The knot<br />

in her stomach loosens and dissipates. The teapot<br />

did not break when it hit the soft carpet. Becky picks<br />

up the teapot and hugs it to herself. She then sets it<br />

in the middle of the table once again. She leaves her<br />

bedroom, shutting the door gently, as if any sudden<br />

movement will shatter the teapot. She leans against the<br />

door a moment.<br />

Becky pushes off the door. She makes her way<br />

down the hall with a quick-footed sureness. She creeps<br />

into the living room. Mum is laying on the couch,<br />

asleep A few long stemmed glasses stand on the coffee<br />

table. One is half full of neon blue liquid. Mum never<br />

lets Becky have any juice. Becky stares at the glass. Its<br />

contents are the same colour as the blue raspberry<br />

candy she likes. A drop of condensation trickles down<br />

the side of the glass. The pink straw waves at Becky.<br />

Becky licks her lips.<br />

Becky steps towards the coffee table. Her mother<br />

turns over on the couch. Becky freezes. Her mother is<br />

still again. Becky looks at the glass once more, then tiptoes<br />

around the couch to the front door. She opens it<br />

as narrowly as possible then slips out into the corridor.<br />

She walks to door number 5B and knocks. No one<br />

answers. Becky continues to knock, still her rapping is<br />

unheard; there is no one home.<br />

Becky returns. Her mother is still on the couch. Becky<br />

glances at her mother and to the kitchen. She walks<br />

into the kitchen. Quickly, she opens the third cabinet<br />

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on the left and moves the pots aside. She pulls out a bag of<br />

cookies. Becky selects three then glances over her shoulder.<br />

Her mother has not moved. She replaces the cookies and<br />

rearranges the pots. She stealthily returns to her room closing<br />

the door behind her.<br />

Becky places a cookie on each of the three plates on<br />

the table, “There you are Mister Jenkins, Miss Jillian, a treat for<br />

everyone.” Becky smiles and takes a seat. She eats the cookies<br />

ravenously, pausing only when she hears a noise in the hall.<br />

She halts; she is sure she heard footsteps outside her door.<br />

The silence is deafening. Becky finishes the cookies. Mum<br />

will wake up soon.<br />

Becky cleans up the tea party. She places the dishes<br />

back onto the shelves and puts Mister Jenkins and Miss Jillian<br />

on her bed. Then she picks up the teapot. She quietly opens<br />

her door and travels to the living room. She pauses, the same<br />

as last time. She sees her mother under a blanket now, her<br />

body all rolled up. Becky tiptoes to the kitchen. She places<br />

the teapot on the counter. Becky places her hands on the<br />

counter and prepares to jump up. She hears a noise. She<br />

turns around slowly.<br />

Becky’s mother stands in the doorway. She speaks.<br />

Becky’s mother always did have a way with words. Becky<br />

closes her eyes. China shatters. Becky’s mother always did<br />

know just what to do. Becky covers her ears. Skin becomes<br />

a rainbow. Becky’s mother always did have that loving touch.<br />

Becky curls into a ball. A door slams. Becky uncurls. She<br />

walks over the broken china. Blood drips among the shards.<br />

Becky’s been a bad girl. Next time she will be good, an angel.<br />

There is no next time. Becky’s mother does not return. A<br />

tall lady comes for Becky. There are no more tea parties.<br />

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A Reaction to My<br />

Stupid Action<br />

I see your face<br />

from across our distance<br />

contorted, transformed with rage.<br />

And this seems so funny to me.<br />

I feel a smile escaping<br />

(from where I keep them under lock and key)<br />

a defiant giggle flees from my lips<br />

(the only small rebellion I allow myself).<br />

I see the words storm<br />

out of your mouth.<br />

They are dark, lumbering, cruel and inhuman<br />

(like beasts that dwell in my nightmares).<br />

But I’m too panicked to make out what they read.<br />

I know that the smile has left my face.<br />

Whatever was funny<br />

(I can’t even remember what it was anymore)<br />

seems hundreds of years away<br />

and I can barely breathe for fear.<br />

All I can sense is the smell of burning food<br />

left forgotten on the stove.<br />

I don’t see much<br />

other than the grainy floor we stand on.<br />

My eyes feel hot and heavy.<br />

I can’t seem to muster any words<br />

(all of the ones I had rehearsed).<br />

My bones are twisting and collapsing in on themselves<br />

and I will the floor to swallow me whole.<br />

I want to call up my clever, witty, bold and strong words<br />

(too bad my tongue turned to ash in my mouth)<br />

to use as a shield for more than my body.<br />

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I see your words<br />

(rather than feel them)<br />

bite, whip, cut and burrow into my flesh<br />

(I never feel it till later anyways).<br />

You remind me that I forgot<br />

how everything is my fault<br />

(I’m sorry I didn’t commit them all to memory).<br />

Even things that happened<br />

before 2:28 a.m. 16 years ago.<br />

But you never forget<br />

and you never hesitate to remind me.<br />

The setting sun is backing you up<br />

through the open kitchen window.<br />

I see my pitiful mistake now<br />

and my mouth tastes of salt.<br />

I know you’re waiting for an answer<br />

(wish I knew the question).<br />

But what am I to do?<br />

You are omnipresent.<br />

A natural-born persecutor<br />

(and I am just your daughter).<br />

So I nod my head and utter<br />

“I won’t do it again.”<br />

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Sarah Neufeld<br />

Kill the Songbird that Does<br />

not Sing<br />

Nobunaga is dead, killed by one of his own officers. Is it a<br />

blessing or a curse? As of yet I am unsure. Nobunaga Oda’s<br />

harsh rule has ended, but still, unease fills me. I can look<br />

back as far to recall the chaos, the revolts, the divisions<br />

that made us weak, made us open for invasion. I recall the<br />

fear, the uncertainty. We were lucky then that the foreigners<br />

were concerned with their own matters while we were<br />

trying to sort out ours. I say sort out but really we were<br />

going nowhere. It was during this time we began to become<br />

aware of Nobunaga.<br />

Being the young head of the Oda family, conflict surrounded<br />

Nobunaga. However, like a true warlord, he dealt with these<br />

problems in a military fashion, gaining power through his<br />

victories. His status increased tremendously and soon he<br />

was even able to conquer the capital, Kyoto, and choose the<br />

next Shogunii. Nobunaga was not our legitimate ruler but I<br />

thought of him as our unofficial Shogun.<br />

Nobunaga was definitely the person the rest of the nation<br />

was looking at as well. Riding into power on a river of Japanese<br />

blood that was quickly turning to a sea he was ruthless<br />

and commanding. Whether this is the way of the daimyoiii<br />

or just the way of Nobunaga I do not know. However, I do<br />

know that no one was safe under Nobunaga. Even those<br />

loyal without fault came into suffering under his suspicious<br />

glare, sometimes paying with their lives. When it came to his<br />

own survival Nobunaga had no friends. I laugh as I say this<br />

because Nobunaga had no enemies either. He killed them,<br />

every one, slaughtered. Young, old, man, woman, there was<br />

no discrimination, only brutality. Even thinking of it now I am<br />

appalled at his cruelty, it is unimaginable.<br />

All his battles became massacres, a sight difficult to forget.<br />

I see them clearly now, as if I’m living them once again. The<br />

tension that warps the air swaying around me, the sickness<br />

in my belly, the rust that stains the earth, the scent of charred<br />

flesh and the sound of flames crackling, perhaps it was hell,<br />

that is what it felt like. Those who died, their last moments,<br />

were they like that? I can only imagine; in this aspect I am<br />

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glad for Nobunaga’s fate, perhaps retribution came in the<br />

form of his death. How ironic for him I suppose, he died<br />

in the same way he killed his defeated enemies, by being<br />

burned alive. I only hope those dead by his hand can rest<br />

with that. Still that is the past and I can only wish that the<br />

era of senseless violence is over.<br />

What is in store for Japan? Will we realize Nobunaga’s<br />

dream? I pray it will be so, for although his methods drove<br />

fear into even the stoutest heart, it was he who forged<br />

the foundations of Japan, by blood. His ultimate goal ‘Tenka<br />

Fubuiv’, were it completed would make Japan strong,<br />

something we will need to be in the future. Nobunaga<br />

rest easy, as the new leader of Japan I will take it upon myself<br />

to create a unified country. A country where life will<br />

once again be prosperous, no longer uncertain; a Japan<br />

that will face the future with strength.<br />

Toyotomi Hideyoshi<br />

i The title, “Kill the Songbird that Does not Sing”, is in<br />

reference to a story told in Japanese where each ruler<br />

that played a part in Japan’s unifications meets a songbird<br />

who will not sing. The story demonstrates the character<br />

of these three rulers by their reaction to problem.<br />

ii Military Ruler<br />

iii Feudal Lord<br />

iv ‘A unified realm under military rule. ‘<br />

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Arden Angley<br />

Painter<br />

It is my sister’s 19th birthday; we are going to our cousin’s farm. We’re blowing down highway #10. Turning<br />

off left about a half kilometer past Woseley on our way down to the Qu’Appelle Valley. The land is<br />

littered with stationary cows that seem intentionally set up for the perfect prairie picture. Our city van<br />

desperately scrapes along the frozen back road. I look up from my lap just as we pass Elisboro. A hamlet<br />

of six people, four of whom are staring at us trying to spot the idiot family inside. I blink and press my<br />

hands to my eyes for a moment. I forgot how long I had been battling to keep my eyes open against the<br />

enormous weight of light. I open them again. The sky’s lid is the stirred blue you’d find on homemade pottery,<br />

descending into a frayed grey around the edges, and somewhere in the middle it’s cracked by the sun<br />

screaming out like an open wound over the winter wheat and the stubble of summers shadow. The roads<br />

climbing the hill curve in and swoop out lulling the countryside into unconsciousness. A painter lives at<br />

the very top of the Qu’Appelle Valley. Her house looks over the plateau of toast and butter land. In every<br />

season she paints a picture of where she lives. My eyes are sewn to the house as our van pulls past waiting<br />

for it to move, or breathe, or wink. Anything to show some life. My legs are bent underneath my weight<br />

and my cheek is hugging the back of the seat where my head should sit, transfixed on her house watching<br />

it through the back window get smaller and smaller. My sister is sleeping. My dad and I are ignoring the silence.<br />

When my mother and father divorced I wasn’t surprised. I didn’t ask why or how could you do this<br />

to me. I just wondered why it had taken so long. Mom moved away immediately, to a house out here. She<br />

quit her job and paid for a few acrylic and oil painting classes. When her license expired she didn’t drive<br />

in anymore. She met a new man who bought her paints and groceries. They live together. I don’t know his<br />

name. They do not own a phone. My mom lives to paint her neighbourhood. The cows never move and<br />

all the bales stay put. She sells every piece of artwork. Each of her paintings is the same and yet customers<br />

buy them and hang them in their houses in an attempt to bring the outdoors in. To surround themselves<br />

in nature. To bask in pictures of valleys. My dad has to take care of my sister and me. Somewhere along the<br />

way he lost his temper. We are both sitting in the back seat. We roll up to our cousin’s house and unload.<br />

My dad hollers for one of us to bring in the cake. I step out and roll the door shut. The shadows of the<br />

moving clouds stumble on the still life down here. I look up at the clouds tumbling in, furrowing their<br />

brows at each other. Disappointed at all the dead life below.<br />

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Ferocious sidestreet puddles<br />

They think they’re so s l y with their<br />

Water flirting wetness and perhaps their ability to<br />

Suck you in<br />

(oh how vulnerable you are)<br />

Hayley Muench<br />

Water Flirting<br />

They’re not so tough (you can see right through them)<br />

quite shallow, such a dreary personality, really.<br />

And<br />

I hate to be the one to tell you this but<br />

they won’t call you back after your waterendezvous<br />

What sorry excuses for melted snow<br />

dirty winter leftovers, only good for<br />

dampening spirits & April shoes.<br />

Avoid their splash-antics and mucking around<br />

they’ll tell you anything you want to hear.<br />

Those pitiful puddles and their rain-cloud talk<br />

Portraying my dress print as I carefully peer<br />

(from a d i s t a n c e … )<br />

Nottooclose . . . they’re much too deceiving.<br />

I never liked spring anyway.<br />

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Annette Nedilenka<br />

My Blunt Obituary<br />

In some cases you can choose the way you want to die. In others you have no choice. I sometimes thought about death<br />

in general, that the way I die will change the way I will remain in this world or carry on in the next. All I know is that<br />

when you die, you want to go back.<br />

A birth and death date are just a record, a log of your life span. Does it contribute to who we are? We need to know<br />

everything and anything in our lives to know one thing; our meaning to breathe, think and feel. It’s just the basic senses<br />

of recognizing the environment and relationships around us. But really, we don’t pay much attention anyways. I think the<br />

real meaning of life is to search for the meaning of life, and when you figure that out and actually find what we are living<br />

for you’ll say,<br />

“Oh. I think I’ll have some tea.”<br />

Or you’ll say, “I fancy dying now.”<br />

Once I wished I was dead just to know what it felt like. Because that’s all we do everyday, we live.<br />

Well the simple way I died was not my fate, my choice, nor was it to happen for a reason. I died because the laws of<br />

nature decided it to be so. I died by getting hit by a bus. Bluntly.<br />

On January 22, 2015.<br />

Simple as that.<br />

And when you are laying on that stretcher, piercing sirens lap out like an opera singing your favourite ballad, plastic gloved<br />

hands trying so hard to bring you back, and all you can think is, “Just give up already.”<br />

Everyone dies alone, whether they are embraced or not. They travel through time like a backwards circuit. And the<br />

flight is better off alone. Wouldn’t it be annoying to have someone beside you in a theatre calling out every few seconds,<br />

“Wow! Awesome! Oh my goodness, that’s so sad. What’s gonna happen now?”<br />

Wouldn’t it?<br />

Winter slowly chilled my non-existent pulse. That’s all I could feel, I guess. But I didn’t really notice, because it was just<br />

happening, not me analyzing every little nerve break. You can only die once, so you should remember it.<br />

The classic death tunnel. People say all you can see is white. Well, in my case it was because I was looking up and there<br />

was snow.<br />

Snowflakes. Fuck.<br />

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windScript writer biographies<br />

Amanda Ahner is a grade 12 student currently attending the Swift Current Comprehensive High School. Last<br />

year she was challenged artistically by Creative Writing 20 and is pleased to have these prose submissions to<br />

show for her hours and hours of revision. Although writing has taken a back burner this year to make time for<br />

choral, band, and an awfully difficult physics course, she plans to continue exploring creative writing in the future.<br />

Jonathan Alexson lives in Fort Qu’Appelle, SK.<br />

Arden Angley is 17 years old and attends Miller Comprehensive High School. She likes Regina. She doesn’t like<br />

decision making, and is late for almost everything. She is just a big idiot that some people accidently take seriously.<br />

Caera Caton was born and raised in the Cypress Hills. The strongest calling to write has always come from<br />

her incredible surroundings, the wind and the forest. This is why she now lives in a small and quaint purple cottage<br />

on Vancouver Island only steps away from new and different inspirations.<br />

Stephanie Clarkson is a broke young woman with a passionate love for shoes, jewelry and books of all kinds<br />

(which is why she has no cash to her name). This 17-year-old is often misunderstood due to her sarcastic sense<br />

of humor. After she leaves Miller High School she will go to a University (her mother claims that it will be the<br />

U of R…she can’t leave the nest yet!), to learn more stuff that she is sure will be important.<br />

Renee Dumont is currently in grade 12 attending the Lafleche Central School. This is her second year in<br />

WindScript. Among many various activities such as curling, piano and karate, writing is one of her favourites and<br />

something that she wishes to continue for the rest of her life.<br />

Will Gordon (not William!) was born on July 14, 1992, two minutes after his twin sister. At the age of five he<br />

started writing and has continued since then. Nowadays when he is not writing, Will utterly wastes precious<br />

time that could be used for far better purposes.<br />

Amanda Johnson is an 18-year-old high school graduate living in Humboldt, SK. She is currently working as a<br />

lifeguard at the local pool, volunteering at the SPCA and spending her spare time writing poetry.<br />

Jocelyn Lukan is 19 years old and lives in the City of Bridges. She doesn’t like writing bio’s and so will end by<br />

saying just that because she can think of nothing else.<br />

Hayley Muench is 18 years old and resides in a 99 year-old house in Humboldt, <strong>Saskatchewan</strong>. She loves flamingoes,<br />

Mango-Lime Salsa, and making lists. Her pet peeves include banana-flavored anything, bad grammar, and<br />

when there is not enough cereal left in the box to have a full bowl.<br />

Annette Nedilenka is a grade twelve student currently attending Miller Comprehensive high school in Regina,<br />

<strong>Saskatchewan</strong>. Her works range in a variety of different subjects and are usually short stories or prose. She<br />

enjoys painting, art, literature and often a tasteful film. Her goal after high school is to go to post-secondary for<br />

animation and character design.<br />

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Sarah Neufeld is a graduate of the Swift Current Comprehensive High School, which was the birthplace of<br />

her passion for writing. Always a fan of reading, writing seemed a natural succession for her, and when she took<br />

her first creative writing course in high school, her obsession was born! Writing is something she will definitely<br />

continue to study and explore in the future.<br />

Victoria Pawliw is currently in her first year of Arts and Sciences at the University of <strong>Saskatchewan</strong>, working<br />

towards a medical degree. In her spare time she enjoys art of all forms, political discussions and being with<br />

friends and family.<br />

Charlie Peters is a grade 12 student from Saskatoon who loves writing, acting, filmmaking and reading (mostly<br />

books but also the occasional cereal box or road sign when driving). He likes making people laugh with comedic<br />

films and the improv he does with the Sa-SKIT-toon Comedy Troupe. He prefers that people not laugh<br />

when he writes poetry on serious subjects, or when discussing his appearance.<br />

Blaire Stevenson: “Let’s just say I’m the type of person who spends most of my time digging for earthworms<br />

on a rainy day and hopping in puddles until the water in my boots is pouring out from the top and it’s when I<br />

splash inside to peel off my socks when I think… I should have stayed in today.”<br />

Katherine Sthamann is 17 and lives in Regina. She is a senior at Miller High School and is their SRC Treasurer.<br />

She is also a member of their FaNtAsTiC improv team. After school, Katherine loves to read, go skating and<br />

write whenever she gets the chance.<br />

Rebecca Thera is17 years old and lives in Regina where she is in her grade 12 year at Miller High School. She<br />

loves being at the pool and wearing warm bunny hugs.<br />

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bios<br />

Benjamin Alan Whittaker is a marvelously strange person. Currently attending Humboldt Collegiate Institute,<br />

he is the biggest penguin fan ever. He enjoys writing poems, as well as short stories where the main character<br />

dies, and he despises writing biographies of himself.<br />

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