Mamta Kalia
Mamta Kalia
Mamta Kalia
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forehead. His mind wandered towards<br />
many memories when he was taking out<br />
the handkerchief.<br />
Vijay Mitra could not be saved even<br />
after much effort. Many students<br />
including himself had argued that the<br />
political loyalty of any student is his<br />
personal right, he shouldn’t be rusticated<br />
on that basis. But college administration<br />
was not ready to hear a word, strict<br />
measures had been taken in the campus.<br />
Police was deputed as precaution and<br />
before the thrashing attitude of some<br />
professors the courage of students failed.<br />
The rustication of Vijay Mitra was first<br />
the matter of discussion and then was<br />
forgotten.<br />
But on his consciousness Vijay Mitra<br />
remained alive for a long time. His bed,<br />
his books, trunk, table lamp, his clothes<br />
made his memory deeper. He could never<br />
understand the weakness in his heart<br />
for Vijay Mitra, his words, his emotions,<br />
his style, his attitude.<br />
Suddenly one day when Mitra’s father<br />
came to take his things. He melted. Seeing<br />
the hopeless, tired and broken personality<br />
of the old man, he could hardly say—<br />
“We tried but…<br />
He couldn’t understand what to say<br />
after this ‘but’ and Vijay Mitra’s father<br />
didn’t want to know anything. During<br />
the packing and loading of his things<br />
on the rickshaw there was a hard silence,<br />
through which much was said in a way<br />
that words could not. He kept looking<br />
at the rickshaw going out of the hostel<br />
gate. In a few minutes Vijay Mitra’s father<br />
changed into a shadow.<br />
He was depressed. Now there weren’t<br />
things reminding of Vijay Mitra’s<br />
presence, but there was an insipid<br />
emptiness in that corner. He felt this<br />
throbbing emptiness. For the first time<br />
he had heard a silence buzzing as if<br />
someone were saying in his ears—<br />
“Comrade, why did you keep my diary<br />
with you?”<br />
This was Vijay Mitra! Was Vijay Mitra<br />
inside him? He glanced around the room,<br />
then very carefully put out the red diary<br />
and questioned himself— “ why did you<br />
hide the diary of Vijay Mitra from his<br />
father?”<br />
And there wasn’t any answer of his<br />
own question. He began passing the pages<br />
of the diary as if the answer will come<br />
out of it. Suddenly his eyes became glued<br />
to a page. Vijay Mitra had written on<br />
a page— “the proletariat must try to<br />
get help from farmers and prepare for<br />
armed revolt. The farmers should make<br />
revolutionary committees in countryside<br />
and prepare to capture the lands. The<br />
labour class will have to take the<br />
leadership in their hands, then only<br />
revolution will succeed. —”Lenin”.<br />
Reading this page he was at once<br />
filled with terror and guilt and he thought<br />
it imprudent to keep the diary. The<br />
sentimentality which had provoked him<br />
to keep the diary, was now again<br />
provoking him to escape from it. He<br />
stood up at once and marched towards<br />
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