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needed to get out of here. “Sorry” I whispered while fleeting to my room and slamming the door
behindme.I couldn’t take anymore of this. Everyday was a chore. Juggling my family and Bella.
Sometimes I didn’tknow if I was protecting Bella from my family and myself or protecting my family
from Bella? I wasshaking my head as I looked for clothes in my closet. I needed to be near Bella
again. My anxietiesseemed to melt away when I watched her sleep.I found a white shirt and blue
jeans as there was a light knock on my door. If I ignored her she might goaway. “Oh stop being
melodramatic, Edward” Alice walked in without consent “I just wanted to see you beforeyou left,
that‘s all” I turned to glare at her as she sat herself on my long black leather couch, folding her hands
over herchest tightly. “You love her, and as soon as you realise just how much you’ll stop all this over
done brooding stuff” shequipped, winking at me. I couldn’t help giving her a half smile. Iwasrather
doom and gloom lately, Ithought as I picked a tanned sweater out. “Hurry up, she’s almost
asleep…well she trying” Alice told me whilst eyeing my chosen clothes. Then shechuckled blocking
out whatever thought that amused her just then and flitted out of the room. Eyeing myclothes I
wondered what that was about. I hurried to freshen up and change.Racing out of the house and
running through the forest alleviated me almost instantly. The speed and thewind made me feel free
of all the weight I felt in the house. The unneeded air was welcome in my lungsand I breathed it in
deep.Bella was fast asleep but her body didn’t look entirely relaxed. She had headphones in with the
music stillgoing. I wondered if I should turn it off. But decided against it. Partly because I didn’t want
to wake herand partly because that was just excuse to touch her. I shook my head.Instead I sat
quietly in the rocking chair thinking of the day ahead. Could I really be alone with Bella forthat
long?No witnesses…An echo of the monster inside me reminded. It wasn’t as strong as before. The
monsterwas getting weaker.But he was still there.I concluded wryly.Bella seemed more peaceful as
the night moved forward.I watched her steady breathing and took in her scent every so often with
exaggerated deep breaths. Itburned.Deal with it I told myself and breathed even deeper.I thought
about leaving in the morning and cancelling the trip. “Nope” she replied. She hadn’t told her father?
“But Jessica thinks we’re going to Seattle together?” At least someone knew that she was with me,
Icouldn’t slip up now. “No, I told her you cancelled on me - which is true” “No one knows you’re with
me?” How could she be so stupid, didn’t she understand what I was capableof? “That depends… I
assume you told Alice” “That’s very helpful, Bella” What an apt time to make jokes. She didn‘t reply
and I just got harsher “Areyou so depressed with Forks that it’s made you suicidal?” “You said it
might cause trouble for you… us being together publicly” “So you’re worried about the trouble it
might causeme- if youdon’t comehome”I tried hard not to raisemy voiceBella just nodded, and didn’t
turn to look at me. “Of course you’d make this as difficult as possible for me” I murmured so slow
there was no hope of hercatching that.We drove silently for the rest of the journey, if I spoke now it
would only come out as a growl orprofanities. Neither of which I wanted Bella to hear.We arrived at
the beginning of the narrow marked out trail. Bella parked the truck on the edge and gotout. I waited
a moment and watched her remove her sweater and tie it around her waist. She had on asleeveless
shirt. He ivory skin looked soft. Warm. I shook my head quickly and looked up at the sky. Thesun was
beginning to shine brighter now making the day much warmer. Climbing out, I removed my
ownsweater but placed on the seat. Then I slammed the truck door to catch Bella’s attention. I kept
my bodyfacing forward into the vast forest awaiting us, but turned my face to look over my shoulder
as I spoke “This way” The annoyance was still clear in my voice and I began to walk into the forest.
“The trail” Bella’s voice was frightened. “I said there was a trail at the end of the road, not that we
were taking it” “No trail” the same panic in her voice. She was actually reacting as she should. “I
won’t let you get lost” She seemed like she choked on whatever she was going to say as I turned to
smirk at her now. Her eyesmet mine and I was confused by the sadness I saw in them. Why would