1.Der erste Blick Das war die Tageszeit, zu der ich mir ... - Wikia

And I wanted to knoweverything “It’s my day to ask questions” “Oh that’s right’’ she replied
her brow creasing for whatever unknown reason this displeased her “Whatdo you want to
know’’ “What’s your favourite colour” I started off quickly.She rolled her eyes as if she had expected
much worse “It changes from day to day” “What’s your favourite colour today” I pushed “Probably
brown” What an odd choice. “Brown?” I mused with doubt in my voice. But before I could even ask
why it waslike
she
read
my
mind. “Sure brown is warm. I miss brown. Everything that’s supposed to be brown - tree trunks,
rocks, dirt -it’s covered up with squashy green stuff here” I was staring into her eyes now as I
listened. Why did Iquestion her choice of colour? It was beautiful. Deep. Captivating.
Stop starting at her
I scowled at myself. “You’re right” I composed my thoughts and looked away. “Brown is warm”
I concluded out loud.Instinctively my hand reached over towards her. I wavered for less than half a
second before brushingher hair back behind her shoulders.She shouldn’t have to worry about my
temptations. She shouldn’t have to worry about anything.As I drove into the school, easily pulling
into a parking space, I turned back to look at Bella again. I didn’twant to have to part and go to class.
I wanted her to stay in this car with me. I wanted to look into hereyes some more. To watch her lips
move as she talked. To smell her scent as she played with her hair.Ignoring the burn that formed now
at the back of my throat I knew I didn’t want her away from me foreven a moment.
Stop it.
I fought with myself again.
It’s already gone beyond the realms of sanity, do I really need to push this any further
.No I wouldn’t need to push. That was the problem. This was going tospin out by itself whether I
pulled or pushed.I was bounding out of control and I needed to be reignedback in.Bella belonged in
the sunlight. I belonged in the darkness. Where my true self could never seen.
Exiled.
The way I stared at her, the way she smelled to me…She should be running from my car right about
now.
There just wasn’t, and never will be, any common ground between us
. Safer to continue my quizzing. “What music is in your CD player right now?” As she mentioned the
name of the band I let a half smile reign over my face and my recent thoughts.The irony was, as
always, just on time. I reached into my CD compartment, flipped through the CD’s tofind one in
particular. I couldn’t help but feel a little smug at proving myself wrong.
No common ground
Imused…
6
“Debussy to this?” I handed Bella a CD. She looked at the cover and recognised it. It was the same
CDshe had just mentioned.The day continued in a lazy, repetitive pattern. But I never bored.As usual
her silent mind gave me no answers so I asked question after question. Revelling in thefascinating
details whilst walking her to her classes, through to the lunch hour. I gathered the kind of movies she
liked. She hadn’t travelled very much but she yearned to explore the world. I asked abouther
favourite books. This seemed to enthuse her. She had a lot to say on what a good book should belike
and what she had read. She answered all my questions, mostly with a perplexed uncertainty.