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with a lightmummer of my name. All the happiness was back. She bought it inside with her. It
was here in her room.I stood very still and waited for her stirring to ease while saying my name over
and over. It felt like I washome.
This is wrong. So wrong.
I growled.I waited another moment before I heard her steady breathing. Relaxed now I was
conflicted betweenwalking towards her or going to take my usual place on the rocking chair.
No more mistakes
I reminded myself The rocking chair won. As I sat there her scent swirled all around me. Encroaching
me all over again. Butit was getting a lot easier, even the monster was quiet. I wanted to go over and
stroke her cheek. Just tofeel her soft, warm skin for one last time.
And then again for the last time. And again…
I was weak and greedy when it came to Bella. I just wantedmore and I knew I wouldn’t… Couldn’t
stop myself.
Before I knew it I was walking over to her bed slowly and was about to reach over to caress the side
of her face when she stirred again. This time much more than before.She was awake!I threw myself
on the floor and lay very still.Oh no! Did I wake her? Not only was interfering with her everyday life I
was disrupting her sleep as wellnow. Yes I was greedy.
Happy now?
I thought to myself angrilyBella sat up in her bed and rubbed her eyes. I tried to slide under bed
discreetly in case she got out. Atthat moment I remembered what Rose had said.
‘’Pathetic’’
This truly was pathetic. I shouldn’t even be here.I heard her slump back down and I very quickly and
quietly shifted to a shadow near the corner of theroom. I should have gone out the window. But all
logic, all reason was beyond me now. Bella could wakeup and see me right here and I wasn’t even
thinking about leaving anytime soon.I shook my head.
And I thought
she
needed to be in a facility for
her
health?
She tossed around some more. She really wasn’t peaceful this night. I wanted very much to lay next
toher. To hold her. To ease whatever agitation that wasn’t allowing her to sleep. But I would
probably justmake it worse. Throw her dreams of me into nightmares.As right they should be. A
monster like me had no place in the dreams of an angel‘s creation. I had toleave her room right this
moment. I looked at the window. ‘’Edward?’’ She said in a questioning tone. I froze. Had she really
seen me? Was I really being socareless? She whispered my name again and threw her arm over her
covers and encircled them with asmall smile on her face.I was undone.
Sleep my sweet Bella. Sleep.
I thought. And I let my back slide down the edge of the wall as I madepreparations to watch her
sleep until the sun disturbed me.
Chapter 14- Division