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discarded look. Within a second I was insidemy room hearing the door close behind me as I went to
stand by the grand window. I tried to block outall thoughts but instead was greeted by an
unwelcome intruder
Almost tasted that blood, her sent the ruby pouring from her
the brute whispered from within. At thatmoment my throat was set aflame and I closed my eyes
imagining, welcoming the venom filling mymouth.I shot open my eyes and reached in my pocket for
the bottle cap and as I touched it I felt the flamesfrom my throat subside and move to where she had
touched my hand. A fire that I could stand. The heatstill unchangedWithout a seconds thought I went
to turn on my music system in hope to drown out the bloody thoughtscompletely. As music filled the
room I mindlessly started to hum out of tune. No, not out of tune… Thequiet lullaby of the beautiful
sleeping girl drowned out the music in my own head.Not long before I could see her again. Of course
she didn’t know this. I could imagine her face if shefound out that I watched her sleep. She would go
running and leave Forks for good. Part of me hoped forthat. For her sake. Only for her sake.There
was a quiet knock on the door and before I could tell her to go away Alice let herself in. I turned
togaze at her as I slid the bottle cap back into my pocket. ‘’You’re going to see her again tonight
aren’t you’’ she said morosely.I sighed ‘’What do you want, Alice?’’ She smiled at my failed attempt
to sound aloof. ‘’Well…’’ She started walking towards me ‘’I think it’s very unfair that you’re keeping
my future best friend all to yourself’’ She whined.I rolled my eyes and turned back to looking out of
the window. ‘’Your future is becoming more solid, Edward’’ She continued ‘’Every time I have a
flash of Bella Sawnbeing hurt, that hazy image is quickly replaced by a much more solid one of her…
with you. Always withyou’’
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Of course she would be with me. I was her protector. For now. For as long as it was justifiable. In
myhead.
Or until she runs from me, screaming as she goes
I thought less hopefully. ‘’What do you want, Alice?’’ I repeated for lack new of words. ‘’Nothing right
now’’ She began in a mischievous tone ‘’I can see you’re aren’t ready for
that
yet.‘’ Thenher voice became serious ‘’But the more you try and run from her, the more you can’t. So
why not juststop, Edward. Stop and just accept…’’ ‘’…that I might kill her one day’’ I finished for
her. ‘’No’’ She said is a louder more sarcastic tone.I saw her eyes narrow in the reflection of the
window and I let my head drop. She was standing next tome now. ‘’ You won’t do that. And you
know it. You would have done it already if that was the to be, Edward. AndI was going to say that you
need to accept her as part of your life now.’’ I said nothing. ‘’And mine’’ She added quietly ‘I have to
go’’ I said abruptly. I didn’t even wait for her response as I ran out of the house. Racingthrough the
woods as fast as possible. I was halfway to her house when I realised the irony of it all. Ishould be
running
away
from Bella Swan. Not towards her. Running far far away from her. Leaving her toa life she was worthy
of. Not obliterating it with every stride I took. It’s as if I had no control over myself.Right and wrong.
It was all a chaotic blur. Completely tangled with one other. Just like Bella and I. Twoopposites that
were being thrown together. She was right, beautiful and pure. I was wrong, monstrousand tainted.I
stopped my thoughts in front of her house. My mind was telling my body that each step I was
takingwas wrong and I should turn back. But that voice was fading the closer I got to her room.
I quietlyslipped through the window and just as if she knew, she welcomed me through her slumber