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I locked the car and just as I thought everyone, except Alice, was waiting for me. Their thoughts
reachedme before I had even walked through the door. The loudest was the string of profanities
from Rosalie.Then Jasper’s quiet laughter. My father had a confused sense of relief in his eyes but his
thoughts wereworried.I mirrored his worries. About my sanity.
Maybe Emmett’s right.
I thought
Maybe I am losing it.
Esme looked like she would have tears of joy if she could. Her thoughts were a buzzing humming
song. Adance of happiness and the only words I could catch were
She’s special, son.
‘’Oh crap, common ref’’ Emmett boomed from next to the TV before silently adding;
You started this soyou deal with Rose now.
‘’Did you want to talk, Edward?’’ Carlisle asked me in a tone that would be used on someone who’d
justrecently lost his mind. I stared blankly at him, ignoring Rosalie’s glare, trying to concentrate on
histhoughts. The same ones he had on the night I had taken him back to Port Angeles to show him
those… Ifelt anger seep into me… those brutes. My fury trickled down my arms and to my hands. I
clenched theminto fists as if to stop it from leaking further. Causing any more damage. Justifying the
fact I was notgood enough for
her
.I tried to see through the haze and listen again to Carlisle’s thoughts.
Edward, she’s special. Esme thinks so too. Look at the effect she’s having on you.
I loosened my firstsslightly
. The change that we all see in you is absolute. Turning back from this now would only hinder
everything you are and everything you have worked to be.
Unexpectedly lost focus on his thoughts andsnapped my head up at Rose. My fury hadn’t completely
waned yet and she had just ignited it higher. Igrowled at her unsaid words and her smug smile told
me that this is the reaction she had wanted fromher sick thoughts. Thoughts of taking a pure
innocent life of a girl who was only a danger to herself. ‘’How typically Rose. You should…’’ My words
fell short as I dropped to my knees and cried out ‘’NO! No. Not, Bella, No.’’ Blood soak through her
clothes, from her still, now lifeless cold body. Turning whiter. I couldn’t stand tolook. I threw my
hands over my eyes but vision still plagued me and I let another cry of agony slip frommy mouth. The
pain was unbearable. As if my heart was trying to rip through my chest. Like it had come.
alive and started to beat only so I could feel it breaking inside me. The ache was almost too
much…Another cry left my mouth as I saw myself beside her. Bloody hands and lips. A smile on my
monster’sface ‘’STOP THAT, ROSE’’ I heard Alice say in a final tone. ‘’Pathetic’’ Rosalie answered and
the visions ceased and I heard her footsteps going out the door. I got upin a quick, lithe movement
and before I could follow her I felt Emmett’s heavy hand was on my shoulder. ‘’Cool down, kid. I’ll
talk to her’’ his voice was low and concluding. ‘’I wasn’t going to
talk
to her’’ I murmured to him.Alice was at Emmett’s side now and she gave a indifferent look. I scoffed
at her but Emmett was alreadyfollowing Rosalie’s footsteps out the door without another response.
Alice slowly turned to look up at me ‘’ I don’t have to guess what she was thinking’’ she whispered to
me ‘’But Edward if you only could…’’ ‘’Not now Alice’’ I cut her off abruptly still trying to control my
irritation. I turned on my heel and as Idarted towards the stairs I gave Carlisle and Esme a small,